Finally..!!
MSTs are over..

But a sad end to it.. The last paper.. Structured Programming was rather screwed up... How to score like this..?!?! If i don't do well for this paper.. I'm gonna re-take it.. Damn u Wing.. Dunno how to teach.. Right now i sit in silent anger.. Fists clenched till my knuckles turn white.. Damn it man..!! I'm not alone in this misery.. Neither are my classmates.. For both DBE classes taught under wing hung.. The whole test was screwed up..!! AAaaaaarrrrgggghhhhh...!!!!!!!!! *Bam*.. Shit.. I broke my brother's cupboard door again.. Now all 5 doors are broken due to my punching.. *wicked laugh*.. Strange.. I don't feel any pain.. Must punch something harder.. Must break something.. LoL..!! Getting way out of hand here.. LoL..!! Go play xbox and play survival mode on DOA 3.. Whack every character that gets in my way.. *wicked laugh*..

Charming, Enchantingly Sweet..

Damn.. I need to get a haircut too..

Le Bleu are thru again...!!!!!!! Aaaaarrrgggghhhh....!!!!!!!!!!
3-1 vs Spain.. The greatest comeback for this finals..
Zinedine "Zizou" Zidane..!! Composure, skill, finishing

Quaterfinal 4 -- Brazil vs France (world cup 98 final replay)..
C'mon frenchies..!!

Maths test was tough i have to say.. Watcha expect from maths.. Total killer.. Oh well.. wat has been done has been done.. Now i have to weed out my mistakes and overcome them as well as improve wat i already am strong in..
Came across the hot and sexy sparkles.. Oh well.. I have someone MUCH BETTER now.. And i'm sure grateful.. alhamdullilah..

Next up.. Structured Programming.. Geek lingo galore.. Not like some.. Merepek become merapek.. Still got the lingo for the wrong word.. Still say i dunno such things.. LoL..!! So much for A1 in malay language.. LoL..!! Mapek only.. *Oops*.. I mean.. mepek only..

Quarterfinal 3 -- Italy vs. Ukraine...

Socceroos don't deserve to go thru.. want to know why.. ask me yourself.. too long-winded..

Digital electronics was so so.. After the test.. Binary figures 1 and 0 kept recurring in my head.. So many of them.. Can make me go nuts.. Next up.. A killer.. Engineering maths.. Like which maths paper ain't a killer..?? Damn.. I just hate maths.. But wat to do.. Year long module.. Somemore i'm an engineer.. Can never get away from maths.. Haiyer..

After the test.. went to jurong point with jumadi.. Ate at banquet.. then walk ard the place.. damn.. tmr's maths.. i just can't get it outta my head..

Good luck to y'all who still do have papers..!! For those who have received their results.. All the best..!! I'm sure it'll turn out fine.. It's been fine all the way right..??

Mapek..?? Wat kind of word is that..?? LoL...!!!

Quaterfinal 1 -- Germany vs. Argentina
Quaterfinal 2 -- England vs. Portugal

England vs ecuador.. wat a match.. truly proves that slow always negates fast..
Portugal vs Netherlands.. tsk tsk tsk *shakes head*.. 20 yellow cards.. 4 red cards and a fight.. tsk tsk tsk *shakes head*..

The start of MSTs.. All the best to you guys..!!

Haaaaahhhh... after 3 weeks of "solitary confinement".. some company at last..!! I just love being in the company of others.. It just fills me with energy as i talk and make 'em laugh.. I just love putting a smile on people's faces and to hear them laugh.. Even though we were about to go thru a test.. I still got the mood to jest with my classmates.. It really is fun for school to start once again.. As well as my non-stop jest.. Making matured jokes with my lecturer and lab technician as well as childish jokes with my classmates.. I just love being a joker suffering from verbal diarrhoea.. MST PEEE was overall fine.. My only mistake was in superposition.. Oh well.. It's the hardest of the qn.. and for me to breeze thru the qns was simply remarkable..

Next up.. Digital electronics.. Good luck everyone..!!

Toodles Noodles Oodles..

Germany are thru..!! Next opponents.. Argentina.. gonna be a tough match..

Looking at my fingers.. they're crooked.. they bend in at the middle joint then bend out again.. I knew this since i was young.. I have my mother's fingers.. but hers aren't crooked.. Somehow i kinda like 'em crooked.. And now.. i realise what marvels my fingers hold.. The stationary that i use.. all of them.. their tips are rather small.. those ranging from the standard 0.5 to 0.38 to the smallest i've ever used, 0.28.. Rather small right..?? I kinda like my stationary to have tiny tips so that i can write my own intricate way.. I realise that my fingers.. Are scribe's fingers.. I have the hands of a scribe.. That should explain my extreme liking of writing and also to write in a rather small font.. To the certain extent that my poly friends say that i have the hand-writing of gurls, that i write like gurls.. So neat for a guy like me.. They even compared them to my female classmates.. Who were also surprised that that's my hand-writing.. I never did like writing big.. That's why i've got problems doing project work where u have to write on those vanguard sheets and mahjong paper.. They'll be big at the beginning then slowly become small at the end.. So i'll ask my classmates to write 'em.. I just love being able to write in a small, neat, intricate font.. It's kinda cool.. LoL..!!
Tmr's the start of the MSTs.. good luck everyone..

Hands of a Scribe..

1 month..

Le Bleu are through..!!! *phew*..

Archery was rather fine today.. the weather was o' so good.. It was really cloudy.. So no sun.. shiok..!! But kangwei and i had to share a screwed-up bow.. it had no arrow rest.. so we had to steady the arrow as we drew.. So our gripping was always a problem.. coz the index finger that steadied the arrow when put down would somehow slant our wrist to the left.. so all our shots were going left and above.. Then we had this korean archer come to 'coach' us.. And she said that for our age.. 10m was waaayyy pre-school standard and we should be shooting 1000m.. 1000m..!?!?!? we can barely even shoot 30m.. Oh well..

Lilian always got a bruise on the inside of the elbow everytime he took a shot.. Damn.. the bruise is ugly.. For a bio student to call a bruise ugly.. then it really is that damn ugly.. So i kept on joking with her.. LoL..!! I really suan-ed her alot mann.. LoL..!! Oh well.. I can deny that i'm a joker.. It's in my blood.. Then again.. it's my nature to be nice.. so lilian.. i know i talk alot.. but afterall.. i'm a nice guy right..? LoL..!! Well.. after archery.. went to have lunch with minghui, kangwei and lilian.. Talked alot.. Alot, alot.. Went home with minghui.. talked about our courses and our 'O' lvl english.. He's gonna retake it.. so just helping him and giving him advice lerr..

Mugging.. World Cup-ing..

disappointed i really am.. but i'm helpless against destiny.. everyone is.. so i just have to be resilient about it.. By god's will that it would happen.. Then happen it would.. If it's god's will.. i can do nothing.. just endure and have faith in him..

Endure.. Where the blade cuts the heart..

World cup.. o' world cup.. Nothing definitely is impossible.. Seeded teams not making it to the second round.. Czech's out.. Poland's out.. Japan's out.. Most probably France is gonna go out too.. most probably.. Le bleus.. Don't let me down.. the only other team i support to not show results.. Germany's rockin' it..!! They're facing sweden next.. My uncle and aunt came by in the morning to catch the brazil match.. And my uncle was constantly going.. "Gemok. score ahh.. gemok".. Referring to the overweight, fat ronaldo.. LoL..!! And indeed he scored.. 2 goals somemore.. Guess he still hasn't lost the fear that he strikes into the hearts of defenders and goalies..

Dunno why i suddenly got an interest in Naginata.. must be too much watching martial arts movies.. But singapore got no naginata classes.. guess i have to work it out on my own, by watching videos..
Damn..!! I got a nasty rash on my neck.. damn it's burning..

Thinking of you gave me sleepless nights for your slender grace filled me with quiet delight.. And sleepless nights i sure did have..
Missed dearly o' strong, complain-y one...

Things i hate about the holidays..

Sonehow.. for a strange reason.. i kinda dislike the holidays.. Okay.. this may sound weird.. No lessons and the freedom to do your own things may be a plus point of the holidays.. But.. But.. What are holidays when u have absolutely nothing to do..? what are holidays when they bombard you with an amount of homework a normal school day won't have..?? Holidays for me is being isolated from the world.. Just locked up in my room-cum-cell.. Just hogging the computer.. or working out.. Or cleaning my room.. then make a mess out of it.. then clean it up again.. LoL..!! Holidays.. U are kept away from ur friends and those closest to you unless of coz u plan to go out.. Being kept away from ur clique of friends or even that special someone, the outside world.. U begin to think.. think of things this.. think of things that.. Some thoughts can be wise.. others are not.. Wise thoughts.. during the "holidays" prior to the release of the 'O' lvl results.. I thought wise thoughts and i changed to what i am today.. Not-so-wise thoughts.. crazy, nonsensical thoughts. being 'isolated' for a long period of time from ur friends or even that special someone.. U kinda miss them dearly.. and then nonsensical things start creeping into your mind.. They don't come gradually.. they come out of nowhere.. trust me.. it's stupid.. but it's natural.. it's just how u manage these thoughts that count.. trust me.. i once thought i had throat cancer due to a long period of having a sore throat.. LoL..!! Manage these thoughts.. Not all of them have to be true..

So Ppl.. during the holidays.. Go out.. Go have fun.. coz u wouldn't want to think crazy thoughts.. Missing those close to you is natural.. just tell them how much u miss them every day or night.. or everytime u get to chat with each other on MSN.. etc.. etc.. etc.. So.. Manage ur thoughts.. I miss all of u guys..!!

*Sigh*... The holidays for me are over.. I know the holidays are for 3 weeks but for the past 2 weeks, I have done absolutely NOTHING.. Now i'm left with a week.. but i'm using it to study for my upcoming MSTs whcih start when the holidays end.. So much for wanting to go out.. So much for wanting to do something new.. So much for.. just so much.. I yearned so much but nothing ever happened.. Wat did i do during the 2 weeks..?? Nothing but being sick and frustratingly bored.. Gone out..?? To do my project work, archery, silat, religious classes.. that's all.. Exactly the way it is during the school term just that there ain't no schooling.. *sigh*.. Angry..?? I dunno how to be.. frustrated..?? Hell yeah..!! *sigh*... I just dunno wat's got into this world.. It's like everything fun and cool just halted.. Yet i'm appreciative of wat i still have.. *sigh*.. It's mugging 24/7 for me now..

Ppl.. If it looks like i'm dead and don't do things that i would normally do.. I'm not dead.. Just busy mugging.. So.. No hard feelings if y'all feel neglected.. I have.. But i've never forgotten about you.. I never forget.. I'm hafiz.. And i think i miss you too..

It started out with the usual holiday-boring day... Then friday prayers.. Then i was bored.. so i went to jurong point alone.. wanted to eat lunch at banquet.. but it was packed.. furthermore i didn't carry any stuff to "book" a seat... So i had to resort to eating finger food.. lots and lots of 'em... Walked ard jurong point.. Watch the Ultraman show.. LoL..!! A guy like me watching ultraman.. LoL..!! But the pyro works were loud and awesome.. But overall funny.. It was funny watching those parents create a huha, rebut-rebut for a picture with the Ultraman-s.. There were 3 of them.. LoL..!! Walked ard jurong point until abt 4pm.. then walked home..

Since i still got time to burn. i went to the newly-built street soccer court by the basketball court that i used to play.. And guess who i met... Hafiz..!!!! Omg..!! 4 years.. 4 years since we separated when we went to sec school.. Well.. He was with a friend who was ironically named Hafiz as well... So my team had 3 Hafiz-es.. LoL..!! It was really hard to communicate.. One person call hafiz.. A different hafiz answered.. So it really was funny.. Hafiz has really never changed at all.. Still the same silly chap.. First time i played some real soccer in a long, nong, nong time...

Derong asked me whether i'm interested in representing Archery in the Poly50 event.. Should I..?? I have till the end of the week to decide..

*sigh*.. damn bored sia.. Can someone asked me out..?? Anywhere from home will do.. 3MC...!!! My brothers..!! Let's go out..!! I damn sian ehh...

3 Hafiz-es..

Going thru ur baby photos really brings back memories.. Past memories of young innocence and cute smiles.. It really tugs at the heart strings when looking at them.. Especially when u've never gone the photos for a long time.. Say.. 5 years..?? Pretty long time ehh.. It really has.. And looking at 'em.. Brings a smile to my face.. I smiled unbelieveably at the photos.. So much has changed.. Infant to toddler to kid to teen to a young adult.. So much has changed, really.. I just find it unbelievable.. The photos when i was young really is different from wat i am today.. Me.. with fair skin.. an innocent smile.. a round face.. my trademark fishbowl hairdo that my mum used to cut for me.. My big baby eyes.. My trademark suspenders.. LoL..!! I loved wearing suspenders back when i was a toddler.. And my favourite one of all.. My E.T. doll... Seriously.. If u ppl ever get to see my baby pics.. You'd never believe that it's me.. Believe it.. That fair skinned toddler with the fishbowl hairdo and beautiful smile is me.. Unbelieveable.. I know.. U couldn't tell from the photo that that lil kid right there would turn out to be me.. I don't wanna post these pics coz they have a special place in my heart.. guess for u to see 'em.. U gotta come over to my house.. I'm still bewildered at how much i changed.. It brings a weird smile to my face and i shake my head as i turn the stiff pages of the album.. *weird snigger*.. I just can't believe it.. So much has changed..

E.T. where are you..?!?!
I miss you so much..!!
Guess i have to buy a new one..

I watched as the Czech Republic decimated the US.. Nedved played without a hint of his old age.. Loping ard the field, a typical midfield general.. Tomas Rosicky.. The man to watch for the world cup.. 2 spectacular goals.. Good thing he's going to Arsenal next season.. Arsenal are in real need of someone to bang in the big ones from long-range.. Rosicky's pace, stamina and not to mention his right foot, are amazing..!! Looking forward to watching him play as well as Michael Ballack in the EPL..

Watching the Czechs own the Americans was fun.. Not without a copious amount of nagging... Hehehehe.. I'm still sick.. LoL..!! OkOk.. No need to nag so much.. Actually i kinda like your nagging.. Shows u care much abt me.. LoL..!! Going to see doctor liao ahh..

One of the worst nights in my life.. Couldn't at all have a quarter of an hour of pure slumber.. I couldn't breathe.. My sore throat was killing me.. The build-up of phlegm in my throat was blocking out my air supply.. And i had to constantly wake up to forcefully swallow the phlegm down or go to the kitchen and spit that slimy thing out.. i couldn't sleep with all these.. but the exhaustion was immense.. Tired after a day.. And tired when i'm half dead.. I can barely even talk.. Subuh was a draagg.. I couldn't even say "allahuakbar".. Damn, i'm real sick.. If this doesn't get any better by tonight i'm off to see a doctor..

Went back to school.. Got my project 1 stuff then stayed back for awhile to do some revision.. Gotta start mugging now..(am i using the word right?) MSTs are straight after the holidays.. Must study liao ahh.. But right now..I'm half dead.. My sore throat's still killing me.. I can't even talk properly.. Damn.. On top of it i have a rasping cough.. And it sure damn hurts whenver i cough.. Guess i don't like being sick afterall ehh...

Red eyes.. red face.. red feet.. red nose...

Basically.. everything's red and sore for me today.. Went for silat class.. Since i'm the resident "Hafiz-Chan the test dummy".. I had to be the "guinea pig" for every new defence move.. Being a "test dummy" isn't at all nice u y'know.. U'd be the centre of attention as the other pupils watch as u get thrown on the mat, get a limb twisted into submission or get dragged across the carpeted floor as the instructor demonstrates the new move.. Why am i known as "Hafiz-Chan"..?? Coz i always have to participate in sparring contests with the instructor, my cousin, as he demonstrates new moves or techniques.. Not knowing wat he'll do to me for every new move.. I have to do "stunts", "somersaults" here and there in anticipation of the execution of the new move.. This acrobatic stunts have earned me the name "Hafiz-Chan".. I have to sacrifice my body as it gets hurt for the students to watch and learn.. Today was no different.. I got dragged across the carpeted floor.. As my cousin twisted me right arm and demonstrated the new technique.. The dragging.. well... the dragging burned my feet.. it was one of those carpet burns.. Damn.. they're painful.. Everytime i wash my feet.. i'l grimace in pain.. Red, sore feet...

Red eyes, red face and red nose... Dunno why when i woke up in the morning.. my eyes were bloodshot.. they weren't painful at all.. But it was really evident.. Then i came down with something.. i dunno lahh.. flu.. fever.. watever u wanna call it.. I had a damn runny nose which explains my red nose.. Then lunch was oh so terrible.. I couldn't have my favourite.. So i tried another dish.. And the horrid, oily taste really spoiled my day..Who the hell makes soup with frying oil.. The soup definitely tasted that way.. I had a sore throat after that.. My whole face turned red.. I could barely talk..I instantaneously fell sick.. Felt really half dead.. Even now.. i watch myself in the mirror of my nearby closet.. My Half Dead Red Self...

Archery was the usual.. burn under the scorching sun session.. Putting on the sunblock was rather funny.. I accidentally smeared it into my nose and my whole face turned red esp my nose.. It was tingling mann... LoL..!! Terrence was laughing at me all the time.. Oh well.. I had a bow all to myself for about an hour till jeremy came.. Was rather fun.. All my ends were yellow, that's about 6 ends.. Until jeremy arrived and i got distracted.. Oh well.. When he left.. i was left alone for a moment.. And i got my groove on.. Another 2 yellow ends.. shiok.. my form has really improved.. Just need consistency in my release..

Spending an hour talking to you was great.. I got to know more about u.. And i believe u got to know me better too.. It really was great having that conversation with you.. I loved it.. Looking forward to the next time we meet... Then can converse with u again.. I really loved it.. On top of all.. I love being with you..

I dunno how to start this.. You're the only one outside my family to really care about me at this point of time.. Many times you asked me whether i was fine even though i insistently told u that i'll be fine.. You still cared for me no matter how much i told u that i'm okay.. It's as if u could fill wat i feel inside.. Thanking you over a text service is not enough for the amount of concern that u have over my well-being.. So.. in any way possible.. I'm always gonna thank you.. Thank you for caring.. Thank you for being stubborn in ensuring that i'm okay.. It's really comforting to know someone who can see beyond me and know how i truly feel inside.. Thank you.. Thank you so much.. Thank you so so so so much... Thank you.. In return.. I dedicate myself to provide u aid, care and concern when u need it.. Provide you with the comfort of knowing that there's always a bright side of life.. I'll be your shoulder to cry on.. I'll be your blanket of security.. I'll be your punching bag.. I'll be your everything.. U know who you are.. Thank you so much.. Thank you..

She's in the papers today.. Berita harian.. Obituaries.. Page 15.. the top right hand corner.. u can never miss it.. *sigh*.. Why..?? she didn't want to die.. at least not yet.. for her young son's sake.. but god loves her more.. Now she has passed.. Seeing her photo really hurts.. I can only hold my head in my hands and run my fingers thru my hair.. As the sorrow takes me once more.. This will take sometime to get over.. Time is the best healer of a broken heart..

Finally...!!!!!!!
The PEEE project is complete.. that's the only group project that i have to do and it is finally completed.. Thank God..!! Alhamdulilah.. *phew*.. can breathe a sigh of relief.. As usual.. Hakim came late.. oh well.. he bought us teh tarik as compensation for his late-coming.. Thx bro.. they're great.. But i've learnt a lesson though.. Never drink teh tarik after eating a meal at kfc.. Certain "chemical reactions" would occur and "foul gasses" would be emitted periodically from ur "exhaust pipe".. LoL..!! In simple terms.. It kept me farting..!! LoL..!!

Got a brief insight into the IDEA module that some of u guys take but i'm only gonna take it next semester.. Really though i must say.. It's damn hard.. It dwells on the social problems in singapore.. Relax.. relax.. No need to panic.. no need migraine.. Relax.. breathe in.. breathe out.. Wash ur face.. then stare at urself in the mirror then tel urself everything's gonna be okay.. relax lerr... LoL..!! Was rather shocked when i received a "kiss".. LoL..!! Left me there blushing like a tomato.. LoL..!!

I'm ur number 10.. i mean.. Number 1..

Weekend writeout..


Sorry guys.. been kinda busy lately.. 3 projects, assignments and tests back to back three days in a row.. so kinda busy..

Saturday training started early.. for once.. had this different format.. but it wasn't at all carried out.. but i applaude the seniors for making this new format.. really shows the discipline.. good one there seniors..!! *applause*.. Well.. i was trying to start it out cold.. as in taking scores cold.. never had warm-up ends.. just go and shoot 2 sighter then 6 ends of 6.. But it was a really wrong move.. my score sucked.. and it continue to suck so badly.. up till lunch.. lunch.. shuyu was having this CIP program with primary school kids.. aahhh... shuyu.. gorgeous and amazingly pretty.. ahh.. only eye candy.. must respect the fact that she is attached.. oh well.. no harm in looking right..?? besides.. there's a cavity in my chest where my heart once was.. i have no heart.. after lunch, i checked my equipment again.. then it dawned o me that my string serving had frayed and it was acting like Hoyt's string shox system.. dampening my shots making all of them go low.. so i had munweng help me cut them off.. and i was back to shooting my best.. guolong taught me a new method of "gripping" the bow in the followthrough sequence.. really helps.. after which it was real effective to the state that every end i shot i got 50pts and above.. which finally tallied to a total of 306..!! That's alot.. but i know i can do much better.. i believe i can do it.. i can do it..


Sunday..

Nothing much to say.. was damn tired.. i spent some time applying teflon to my busted string serving.. my scores were pretty low by my standards but never going below the range of 290.. damn tired.. sianz.. monday i was having a practical labtest that i'm like doing alone even though its groupwork.. sian tiaw.. brought back the limbs that mr wee lent me..

it's a rather short and non-detailed entry as compared to the other weekend writeouts.. i'm sorry.. i'll do my best to keep ya'll entertained..

*Sigh*... Why isit that i always kena pangseh and have take up the responsibilities of my grp members who pangseh-ed me..?? Oh well... Wat has been done.. has been done.. they pangseh-ed me.. and i have to do their work.. Research was abit crazy.. Falina kept on chatting on MSN.. And i was busy configuring my laptop to spwireless.. I just had to reset my password.. When i resetted it.. All hell broke lose.. My laptop still uses the old password to login but all my other SP accounts use the new password.. So i was "abit" crazed... Without the ability to login with my new password.. i cannot access spwireless.. Aaaaarrrrggggghhhhh.....!!!!!!!!!!!!! I couldn't even access my own documents.. Drive not found... AAaaaaggggghhhh...!! Falina thought i've gone mad.. i started laughing crazily and my face turned all red.. I even scared her with my laugh.. I just couldn't believe it.. All my work.. could possibly be GONE.. Aaaaaaarrrrrrggghhhhh....!!!!!!!!!! I'm literally gonna kill myself if that ever happens.. I told falina to watch for tmr's news headlines.. "Deranged Poly Student Jumps Over Lost Work"... LoL...!!! I was really driven crazy... I couldn't stand it.. All my work could be gone.. So i went to get my laptop fixed lerr.. Not jump off a building.. I know some of u guys want me DEAD.. i'm sure.. LoL..!! Oh well... I'm alive and kicking..!! Too bad.. LoL..!! I'm crazy.. Got it fixed..!! Alhamdullilah....!!!!!!! Hhhhaaaaaaahhhhhh...!!!!!!!! Skali i too happy until jump off building also ahh.. LoL..!!
Well.. i stayed back at the library until abt 445.. doing the rest of the project alone..


Just like any ordinary monday.. reading of the Quran.. then some nasihat.. The whole place was dead silent.. Everyone was lost in silent sorrow.. everyone was looking down.. everyone had sad looks on their faces.. Then Abg shidin went up to announce something.. He told us, holding back his tears and speaking with a stutter, that on behalf of his mother's arwah.. He would like to seek forgiveness for any bad things that she has done to any one of us.. Be it intentional or unintentional.. He said that was wat his mother told his father a day before she left.. All the women wept silently.. I myself held back tears.. Hairul too was on the brink of breaking down.. Ibuk han.. We have always forgiven you for every bad thing that you have done.. intentionally or unintentionally.. We are all one big family.. Ibuk han.. You have been forgiven.. Rest in Peace..

The night before.. My mum planned that we visit her in hospital.. Our prayers have been answered and she's still with us until now.. But when her direct family members didn't turn up for ngaji that night.. I knew there was something wrong.. That kept me worried.. The exhaustion took me and somehow i managed to sleep..


At 347am... i received a msg from encik isa.. The inevitable had arrived... Ibuk Khanifah was no more.. Innalila wainnalilahirojiun.. Intense sorrow filled me.. I couldn't sleep.. i could feel the tears building up but none flowed out.. i was tossing and turning till subuh.. did my prayers and just sat there.. Prayed.. prayed hard i did.. prayed to ensure ibuk had place for herself in heaven and also prayed for God to give strenght to her young son, hairul.. After i was done.. i just sat there too.. memories flooded thru my mind.. memories of gatherings such as family day and such.. memories of how ibuk han was so sporting and always joking around.. And how she would ask me to take care of her son, hairul when he played wif me.. "Jager hairul baik-baik ehh.. nak..".. that's her trademark.. She has this motherly aura abt her.. She always calls children her "anak".. She always treats other children like her own children.. Esp me.. coz i'm the first grandson of my grandma who's very close to ibuk han.. I've known ibuk han all my life.. Once the memories hit me.. tears flowed.. i couldn't control myself.. I'll take care of hairul in any way that i can.. he's like a younger brother to me..


Wen my father woke up.. i told him the news.. He instantaneuosly woke my mum up... I now had a dilemma upon me.. I have a test.. yet i have to go melawat.. Alhamdulilah taufiq allowed me to switch place with him.. Thank you taufiq.. Thank you so much.. my father sent me to school.. i ran to class.. I couldn't concentrate during the test.. the sorrow's just immense.. After i was done.. i took a cab to ibuk han's place.. i was late.. The body was alrdy brought down.. prayers were read and once the command to proceed to the burial site was given.. the women broke down..


Solat mayat.. then off to the grave.. the clayey soil between my toes didn't bother me a bit.. neither did the scorching sun.. I was there to see ibuk han for the last time.. Once the soil had been layed over the grave.. prayers done.. I comforted hairul... Gave him a hug and a reassuring arm across his shoulders.. Abg shidin was the worst hit.. He didn't want to leave his mother's grave.. he just sat there my her grave.. crying.. it really was a sad sight.. Om had to comfort him and bring him away.. Only after that did i feel the heat of the sun and the icky-ness of the soil between my toes..


Hairul.. be strong my brother.. there are others like me to take care of you.. Be brave..

CIP is damn troublesome mann... All the administrative stuff that we have to do.. Not to mention those in charge.. Thank you guys so much..!! Relax.. relax.. There's always are way out.. *twis*..
So CIP.. we're gonna do it as a class.. Gonna set up booths in a flea market.. I'm one of the treasurers of one of the two booths.. It'll be a success i'm sure.. Just get the necessary CIP hours enuff lerr.. No need to carev about how much profit we gain.. Just care about the CIP sudah..

Praying zuhur was rather "freaky".. it was raining so heavily.. In the middle of praying then out of nowhere lightning struck.. The thunderclap that followed was instantaneous.. It's like u see a flash of light then *BOOM*...!! I could see the lightning in my line of sight and it was damn close.. i think hit the sports complex.. I was scared honestly.. Coz i was praying on the topmost level of the topmost building in SP.. so if lightning were to strike.. I'll be a sitting duck.. By God's will.. I'll be fried to a crisp.. kot mati dalam iman..

One week..

Complex numbers now getting more complexed.. The holidays are at the end of the week.. *sigh*... Tired.. tired..

I seem to have developed the falina syndrome.. LoL..!! It's a condition that me and my friends came up when someone talks to his/herself when recieving or sending SMS-es after falina who always talks to herself when getting an sms.. And i seem to have developed it.. LoL..!!

C++ test was rather difficult.. But i scored FULL marks..!!! Hoooooo......!!!!!!!!!!!! it's not writing ABC's in order u know.. it's writing in computer language all those '<', cout, cin stuff u know.. LoL..!!

Tmr's colour would be white..

just one more day.. and it'll be a week.. Alhamdullilah..