Training wasn't at all defined as training.. basically.. the original year 1 archers had to teach the newcomers.. Halfyears as i would like to call them.. Taught dzaki and a guy named husseni.. Well.. as usual.. the ten basics.. safety rules.. etc, etc.. and as usual.. my great teaching ability works.. husseni got his groove on earlier than dzaki.. the bowstring kept on hitting dzaki's large biceps.. LoL..!! Bowstring kena bicep.. can do nothing about it.. honestly.. according to the teachings of GL.. Those who go to gym and build their bodies don't make good archers.. so dzaki.. quit gymming.. if u want to be a good archer..

Since my students can shoot without much supervision.. i just left them to shoot on their own.. and i went over to kailin and christine who were teaching esther and a china girl.. Honestly telling you.. The only few halfyear girls are all china students, and we definitely had trouble communicating with them.. LoL..!! Ryan was struggling with his student with communication.. LoL..!! then there was one time where esther was shooting.. i stood behind her.. with kailin pressing down onto her shoulder that's always shrugged up as usual for a beginner female archer.. and christine was facing her watching her form.. when derong came and stood beside me.. then esther drew.. the look on derong's face was like.. the bowstring will kena her arm.. so i told derong.. "the bowstring will kena her arm, the string will get caught at her armguard..".. True enough.. it did hit her as described.. Goodie me.. Derong just smiled and went back to his shooting.. So i decided to help my fellow buddies.. told esther to lean forward abit.. so she did.. And she shot.. Never kena her arm.. she got two yellows.. Heh..!! I'm great archer and teacher.. i know.. * waves around*.. hehehe.. the problem of the shrugged shoulder can't be helped instantaneously.. It'll take some time for esther to get used to the bow weight.. GL says 2 to 3 trainings.. So i'll give esther that same time.. I think i'm gonna coach esther for a while together with kailin and christine.. while waiting for my assigned bow coz i'm letting my students shoot my 20/3 bow..

Taught until about 1145 when it started to rain.. dunno who gave the command.. everyone started to run for shelter.. weaklings.. I just stood there with dzaki by my bow in the rain as i watched the halfyears ran for shelter leaving behind their teaching year 1 archers watching them run for shelter.. LoL..!! Funny sight.. then derong walked down along the firing line looking at the halfyears.. Then he came by me.. So i asked who asked them to move in.. Derong said dunno.. then we both laughed.. So Szeyuan announced to the halfyears that training will still resume in event of rain and only stop if it gets too heavy or there's lightning.. So some "action" guys came out from the shelter to shoot.. LoL..!! Action sak dorang.. so since the majority didn't want to shoot.. i gave dzaki another bow.. and proceeded to do my "rehabilitation" shooting.. GL came over to watch me shoot.. corrected my form and i was shooting my usual wicked groupings into the 122 face.. LoL..!! Only 10m sia.. of coz the groupings were extreme wicked.. but shooting in the rain lor.. the rain was weird.. awhile light rain.. then suddenly heavy rain.. being the champion.. cheh.. every body was waitin for my call to shoot or continue.. every one was looking at me.. some like rachel and shravan were like "Hafiz, still can shoot..??".. Then i'll be like "yeah, go ahead".. There was one time me, shravan and dzaki were shooting on one board and we shot so wickedly that all of our arrows went into the yellow region.. for a beginner like dzaki.. i'm impressed.. i just taught him a few hours ago and he alrdy grouping yellow.. it was a crazy sight.. my arrows.. were all shot half thru the board.. only the fletches were sticking out of the board with most of the shaft thru the board.. LoL..!! It was nice.. then it really started to rain heavily.. everytime i sighted a raindrop fell into my eye.. so i gave the call to stop.. but.. but.. still got those "action" guys still by the firing line shooting sia.. I had to shout at them to stop then they did finally stop.. How disrespectful.. that's why i hate halfyears.. they think they know everything.. And the year 1s all ran to unset the field.. i think record sia.. 4 minutes and 7 boards kept.. Wow..!! fast sia..

Rather upset at the year 1s though.. they can sit one corner and chit chat and even walk off.. while me, ryan, yan xiang and even dzaki had to unset the bows.. in total.. i had to unset 4 bows.. that's alot man.. rather pissed off.. but bulan puasa.. how to get angry.. get angry also lose unecessary energy.. damn.. looks like the difference between champions and normal archers are that champions don't have to be told to do things.. Champions have initiative.. Like me and ryan.. both of us fasting still have to do a lot of work.. damn upset.. damn AP sia.. played badminton.. went to tiong with the gang and then went home..

I just hate them disrespectful halfyears.. and to ya'll inconsiderate year 1 seniors.. change ur attitude.. it sucks.. all talk no action for what..?!

Waiting for assignment of bow..

Just a single mistake.. Just a single part of form forgotten.. And it could mean losing the chance of winning a gold medal..

Well.. 3 days of CCA booth-ing.. and we have 28 new members.. And one of them happens to be Dzaki.. dang.!! Of all the other ccas and dzaki join's archery.. LoL..!! Partly because of my rather "intimidating" blog rants of archery that probably spurred him to join.. Hey.. Can't blame an championship winning archer for his log of trainings.. I just love archery.. No chio girls.. ='(.. Honestly.. I really don't like new comers.. especially when they're year 1s as me.. i dunno why.. it's just not right.. and some of them think they know all about archery.. hey.. wat's to blame.. it's called "brimming passion".. And i'll see that "passion" fade out and die as they come to realise the harsh reality of standing in the blistering sun at full draw, with beads of perspiration flowing down thier faces, the sharp sting of the bowstring as it catches their arms, the strain of drawing the bow and watch them succumb, not only to the heat, but also to the mental challenges of archery as i've watched many year 1s giving it up eventually.. I lost my 2 original training buddies.. damn sad.. i really miss them.. Jay jay and Evonne.. And watched others just fade away.. Oh well.. To all aspiring archers out there.. Resilience is the key..

Now that i've won the novice championship.. It's now maintaining that top spot and external competitions.. Got several tweaks to my form which i have yet to test out which would hopefully improve my shooting.. Now that school's started.. i kinda miss the rigourous trainings.. 4 days a week.. Now it's only 2 days a week.. And i'll only get to see guolong for 1 1/2 day.. he's gone for ITP.. that means i'm practically on my own out there with only my other GL academy mates to give advice..

School's kinda okay.. Passed all my modules.. as expected.. but not up to my high grade expectations.. as also expected.. LoL..!! New modules.. new friends.. new teachers.. New modules.. CADD, CRS, GEMs-EIC and IDEA.. Damn slack timetable.. Weds, thurs and fridays all end by 12pm.. And i spend the rest of the day slacking at the clubhouse.. Usually sleeping in a corner.. as christine came to find out.. LoL..!!

Back to archery.. haaa... Got rehabilitation at 5m to do before i really start shooting.. Not ever in the mood to teach new ppl.. maybe dzaki alright ahh.. Probably the last time i spend with my beloved bow 20/3.. Now i'm waiting for my assigned bow.. Just hoping for the best.. If possible.. i want a metal riser.. maybe one of the 2 winstar IIs in the club.. all i know is that they're upping my poundage.. I wat a 30lbs bow.. I can draw a 30lbs bow and stay there for about 7 secs.. more than enough time for me to get a shot.. so.. chinyan...!! team captain..!! i want a 30lbs assigned metal bow..!! Hehehehhehehehe...

Back to the introductory sentence.. i just watched 2 archery matches on youtube.. one was the of the Athens 2004 olympics and the other was a recent gold medal match at the madrid championships.. Both matches ended with the winner emerging victorious by only a one point margin.. But the most "influential" one was the madrid championship.. The first video.. It was between a korean named Chung Jae Hun and a jap Ryiochi Moriya.. The korean guy was all consistent and calm throughout.. But the jap guy.. goodness.. he's follow through was disastrous.. u can really see how he flinches after releasing.. But after that horrendous end.. he improved on his follow through.. but then.. it was too late.. and he lost it.. so a lesson i learnt from here is that follow through is important.. and to always smile when shooting.. It calms u down..

Here's the collection of pics on the internal competition... Enjoy.. hehehehe...











Champion at Full Draw..
















The GL Academy family..
top -- GL, weird, crazy
bottom -- serious, negative














Presenting the prestigious.. GL Academy..
















We Are The Champions...!!!













Male and Female Individual Champions..




















My training buddies.. Kailin and christine..
We're in the Top 8.. wohooo..!!!














Scorelist... Look where I stand.. At the very top..















Team Champion, Team Zipp... hehehehe....















Champ Hafiz & Champ Christine talking to Judge Shimin..














weird and GL.. competition still can play play.. LoL..!!













Receiving advice...












Champion consulting his shifu..
















My lane judge, Cheong Keat, taking score..












One of my best shots.. Bloody 5pt shot.. hehehe..

In battle..

Well, well, well..

Today was the Novice Internal competition.. And.. i owned it..!! I am the Champion..!! Individual and Team.. Muahahahahaha...!! LoL...!! The level of nervousness is akin to receiving the O lvl results.. I was so nervous.. I couldn't sleep the night before.. I shitted twice before going to school.. And i went to the toilet for like 11 times for the duration of the day..

It started out nervously.. every year 1 archer was damn kancong.. can tell by the look of their faces.. Me.. have to admit.. i was afraid.. afraid of losing.. I was afraid of shravan, ryan, minghui and even nick.. Shravan and ryan.. well shravan's been my shooting partner for the early days of archery.. Ryan.. well.. i've been training with him most of the time now.. Minghui.. coz he's a left hander.. And nick.. I just don't like his damn face.. He doesn't have that archer look.. And he's damn guai lan.. walao.. can piss guolong and rayson off during the chalet.. he think he so big just becoz he got that ahbeng look.. well u know wat.. I just hate anyone who's under the tutelage of leonard.. I just don't like leonard.. dunno why.. hehehehehehehe....

Well.. got our equipment done.. did warm-ups.. gathered for the briefing before the shooting started.. First round 40cm face.. My detail was with ryan.. No problem.. I've always been shooting with him.. so rather routine.. shot sighter rounds.. then the real scoring rounds began.. adrenaline pumping.. Thank God for the weather today.. it was cloudy.. it was great for archery.. As everyone has high expectations of my shooting.. everytime anyone asks for my score for a particular end.. I'll be like.."Oh.. I got 3M.." hehehehehe.. cannot tell them my actual score ahh... later i become arrogant.. later become complacent.. so that was my answer for the most of the day.. End of 40cm face shooting.. my score.. 205/300.. Amazing.. really amazing.. beat my training score of 197.. I almost fainted.. Almost.. Guolong had to ease my fall to the ground.. and no other male archer came close.. the closest to me was ryan at 169pts.. so i owned with a margin of 36pts.. that's alot..

122 face.. honestly.. i'm afraid of the 122 face.. even though it's big and easier to score at.. i'm honestly afraid of it.. Afraid of 2 things in particular.. One -- it's damn big and i've never trained with it.. Two -- I was afraid of my closest rivals being able to score and accumulate their marks and beating me overall.. Oh well.. I "lost" the second round... I got 2nd place.. 5pts behind shravan.. But overall i still won.. the only person to score 200++pts in both rounds.. so that's a big advantage for me.. And I won by a hugh margin of 38pts... Aaaaahhhh...!!! I owned the internal compy.. 480pts..!!

Lunch at kfc.. chatted with my peeps.. rather surprised that nadiah "beat" rachel... I really am surprised.. coz nadiah doesn't come for training as much as rachel and clement pays more attention to rachel than nadiah.. So that really, really surprised me.. Congratulations to nadiah for exceeding the expectations of many.. Especially mine.. Terribly sorry guys.. I didn't faint.. LoL..!! I mean how to..?? When I alrdy know how good i am and the competition wasn't that great..

Team event.. I partnered with ryan and wai yeh.. well... My team, Zipp, played the most matches as we had 5 teams.. But we still owned it..!!! Ahahhahahahaha...!! Beat the seniors team by a hugh margin that they called me "steroid boy".. Coz i performed better after lunch.. after winning the individual category.. i suddenly got this vibe of fear in my name.. everyone fears it.. LoL..!! "Team Zipp ahh..?? They got Hafiz lehh... how to win..?? U know who is Hafiz..?? He's the champion..!!".... Muahahahahhaha..!! Fear me... LoL..!! damn funny sia.. Even shravan just shakes his head when his team was up against me.. LoL..!! damn funny sia.. guess this is the feeling of earning Respect.. hehehehhehehehe... Another student from the prestigious GL Academy winning both individual and team champion.. LoL..!! GL Academy..!! Nice name sia..

Oh well.. Fasting month is just tmr... I'm gonna lose so much weight.. I'll still come down for archery training though.. Shoot a few ends as much as i possibly can.. or maybe even help that esther since ashley's busy with the changing of his new form and his kui hua baodian... hehehehehehehehehe....

Feeling proud of myself for what i have achieved today.. I even exceeded Guolong's predictions.. And i even shocked him with another revelation.. For me to know.. For u to find out.. if u want to.. rather funny though.. heheheheheh...

Top 4 Males
1. Hafiz
2. Shravan
3. Ryan
4. Ming Hui

Top 4 Females
1. Christine
2. Nadiah
3. Rachel
4. Kailin

Top 8 Archers
1. Hafiz -- 480
2. Shravan -- 442
3. Ryan -- 440
4. Christine -- 433
5. Nadiah -- 426
6. Rachel -- 414
7. Kailin -- 406
8. Lilian -- 395

One word..
OWNAGE..!!!

Shooting on tuesday sucked.. I think it's the competition pressure.. Could feel it even though the competition haven't even started.. was on the verge of breaking down and withdrawing from the competition.. after some deep, tearful thinking by the steps of the multi-purpose field after training alone after the others went up.. Decided to stick on with the competition.. Wanna know why i still stuck with the competition..?? Ask me in person..


Shooting today was well as compared to tuesday.. Shot the 40cm face for a moment.. Went over to the 122 face to so call get a "moral booster".. But james and ashley chased me away.. LoL..!! They say i my standard was too high for the 122 face and that i was scaring the new student from SPDP, Esther, with my wicked groupings in the yellow... so went back to 40cm face.. so i shot.. Not as good as i thought it would be at first.. but then i managed to get a yellow or two.. or 4.. LoL..!! But then something had to change in my form to achieve that but guolong didn't want that happening.. so he asked me over to the 10m board to train my form.. well.. got my form back.. just some adjustments to my finger hook and my bow arm.. then i was grouping like crazy.. so shot like mad at the 10m board.. getting the groove of the new adjustment.. then went to had a late lunch with the gang.. at about 2pm like dat..


Went back to shooting.. still at the 10m board.. had to get the new adjustmet attuned to my form.. Then i went over to shoot my regular 10 ends of 3 at the 40cm board.. when i went there.. connie, lilian, rachel and christine were using the same board.. so i checked out my training buddy, christine's score list.. terrible i should say.. terrible i have to say and she knew it too.. there were so many misses.. tsk tsk.. and connie made a strange statement when i came.. "Oh.. triple ten come alrdy"... i was like "who's triple ten"... Then lilian and connie simultaneously said "YOU LAHH..!!".. LoL..!! I was shocked.. so many nicknames in archery sia.. Hyena lahh.. Hafiz-si lahh.. and now Triple Ten.. Gosh..!! My fellow year 1s really look up to me.. And christine thinks that i'm influential and has this aura coz when she shot with me.. she never missed..!! LoL..!! I got trueshot aura..!! hahhahahahaha..!! I know rachel and shravan look up to me... rather flattered but feeling quite uneasy about it.. My total score for 40cm face --> 196/300.. deproved by 1 point from my previous score of 197..!!! hahahhaha...!!! then connie, lilian and christine went over to the 122 face board.. Matthew, minghui and shravan came over to shoot.. I took a break and watched them shoot.. rachel's arm is just NC-16 blood and gore.. Disgusting.. LoL..!! after taking enough rest.. i got up to shoot.. And matthew asked how my shooting was.. And before i could answer.. rachel piped in.."U ask for his shooting..?!?! His shooting is like "OH MY GOD!!"...".... I was like -.-".. am i really that damn good..?!?! after shooting that end.. chatted with rachel and shravan.. asked them wat were their opinions and reactions if i were to withdraw from the competition.. Their answer was like if i were to withdraw then they too would follow suit.. coz if a person with my shooting cannot shoot then why bother for archers like them to shoot..?? understand..?? i was impressed.. they really look up to me.. But then again i feel uneasy about it.. guess i'm influential to my fellow archers.. rather flattered by their remark..


shooting was done.. unset field then went to clubhouse.. guolong, shwajuan and shimin had left earlier coz shimin had to visit this acupuncturist at clementi.. so it was down to me, de rong, christine and chinyan.. at the clubhouse.. de rong taught me and christine how to fix arrow points into shafts.. it was fun..!! Later de rong also gonna teach us how to fix the nocking point on the string.. wow..!! how great..!! we went to clementi to join guolong and the others for dinner.. met them.. ate.. talk cock then went home..

Only a day left before competition starts.. must be prepared.. most importantly mentally prepared.. i'm gonna do my best.. i'm gonna make my friends proud and i'm gonna faint if i win this competition

Finally an entry that isn't all about archery..hahhahhahahahaha...


basically.. today i went out with my archery peeps.. Guolong, shwajuan, shimin, chinyan, christine, kailin, james, derong and timothy.. went out to watch Monster House at Cathay.. Went there with guolong.. it was only in the middle of the journey that guolong asked me whether i know where the other guys were meeting p.. LoL..!! Now i know why he wants to go with me.. He doesn't know the way..!! ahahahahaha..!!!

finally reached plaza sing where the gang waw having their lunch.. lunch is always long when u have ppl like kailin, shwajuan and shimin eating..LoL..!! so off we were to cathay.. my second cinema experience.. watching monster house.. damn funny show.. kelaka seram.. damn nice.. and damn cold.. after that went "window shopping" at plaza sing.. then we walked off all the way to suntec.. the gang wanted to eat at Carl's Jr.. Even though the place ain't halal.. I just followed them.. The long walk to suntec was fun.. me, shwajuan, shimin, timothy and guolong were clowning around.. Me and timothy were demonstrating to the girls how to trip ppl without them noticing it.. LoL..!! And it was sure funny.. coz we always targeted shimin.. who, despite both of us showing examples, still manage to be tripped.. LoL..!! Then guolong was his usual gay self.. always complimenting about my ass.. damn.. LoL..!! and timothy wasn't spared from it either.. LoL..!! And shimin and shwajuan were constantly chasing and "wrestling" each other.. trying to poke each other's side..


Finally reached suntec.. The whole place is locked-down due to the IMF/World Bank meet.. We had to take a longer way to get to our destination.. There were road blocks, barbed wired fences and Gurkhas armed with shotguns and MP5s.. It was a sight to behold.. it's as if we were in a UN peacekeeping area like dat.. It was really cool.. So when we finally reached Carl's Jr.. The guys ordered their meals while i went to long john silver's to get my food.. I gobbled up my food as fast as i could then joined the gang back at Carl's Jr.. When i came back.. All of them were staring at me.. it was a funny sight.. 8 pairs of eyes watching me.. LoL...!! They actually wanted me to tapaw food here but instead i ate there.. So they "feel guilty" that they brought me to a non-halal food outlet.. Lol..!! The looks on their faces.. real funny.. so they finally stopped staring at me and asking stupid questions and gave in to their hunger.. My god..!! Munweng and Ashley were certainly right.. Carl's Jr burgers are humongous..!! Plus free flow of serviettes and beverages.. Wow..!! If only it was halal.. i would enjoy myself there.. But.. unlucky lah.. So after eating we went home..


The train ride with shwajuan, timothy and guolong was fun.. the usual jokes and laughter.. but we were all tired so it was a rather quiet ride.. Guolong saw a gurl that's his type.. LoL..!! Guolong's straight afterall..!! And just acting hardgay gay.. LoL..!! Shwajuan was constantly bombarded by phonecalls from her parents. They worried about her mahh.. Kesian.. i look at her.. Always have to entertain their calls.. The look of frustration on her face.. tsktsk.. It's just human nature for parent's to care for their children wat.. but i agree with shwajuan.. wat her parent's are doing is a bit waayyy over.. walked home with her as usual.. talked about cockroaches and GEMs.. so that's about it..

Sunday.. wet wet sunday..


Early morning.. go help put lights on in this terrace house.. it was fun though.. i was the only teen there and the others are all adults.. This is the fun u get when join a non-profit religious volunteer group.. Oh well.. i was late for archery training though.. Hehehehe.. to engrossed in volunteer work..


A wee bit more to form perfection.. My shooting is still as precise.. grouping is there.. just the part of where the arrows end up.. the bowstring no longer hits my arm.. that's a good thing.. just that it hits the edge of the armguard.. so the armguard would fly forward when the bowstring hits but won't hit my arm.. a little more tweaking to do to my form.. Realised that my arrows either end up to the right or to the top.. well..


Problem assessed.. solutions derived.. Arrows ending up to the right is the result of me not anchoring properly.. my anchor is by the side of the nose, touching it, and by the edge of my lips.. the fault here is when my anchor is at the centre of my nose.. this is where the problem occurs.. Second problem.. arrows ending up at the top and bowstring hitting the armguard.. Problem.. Overdraw and leaning back.. when i lean back.. the body tends to cause an overdraw.. the leaning back would cause the bowstring to hit my armguard coz my bow arm and my chest won't be aligned.. the resulting overdraw.. well.. would cause an overdraw of the bow and my shots would go high.. So there u go.. Problem solved.. hahahahahaha.. My dedication to archery.. hahahaha...


BK was really having a damn suay week.. alrdy he lost 2 A/C/E arrows.. one when it zipped and one which shattered when it zipped and hit the peg.. pity.. Then today he lost another arrow.. seeing the hopelessness and desperation on his face.. we all went to search for his arrows.. and it was raining heavily.. so there we where.. "vacuuming" the floor with the metal detector.. searching for his arrow.. we found an arrow at first... LoL.. but it was yazid's missing arrow.. damn suay sia. LoL..!! After 1/2 an hour passed.. in soaking wet clothes and in the cold wind.. guolong detected the arrow.. and i dug it up as fast and gentle as i could with my hyena claws.. and sure enough.. white fletches showed up.. then BK joined me in the digging.. mann.. he pulled the arrow out like cradling a baby sia.. He really treasure's his arrows.. tsk tsk.. lucky to have found it.. could see his face change in delight.. Hahhahahahaha... BK, BK.. Next time zip arrows there would be the hunting duo of guolong and me.. LoL..!!!

Archery training today was different.. yet all the while fun..


Implemented several new systems.. the whistler system (as i would like to call it).. and the check-for-updates-on-multiply system.. Basically the whistler system is a system where all the archers shoot and retrieve at the same time.. given 4 minutes to OTOT.. then after that retrieve regardless if you have shot all your arrows or not.. the other system.. well.. basically it explains its self...


Shot 40cm face at 18m.. Competition next week.. must buck up.. I was shooting so crappily that at one moment i was thinking of dropping out of the competition.. hahahaha.. Not ready mahh.. feeling hopeless.. coz when i consulted guolong.. he can't find the source of my crap shooting.. basically they all have a grouping.. but they always end up at the bottom right on the blue margin.. so.. shot crappily for the most of the morning.. Really thought of dropping out from the competition.. but... coming to the end of the compulsory training time period.. I found, or rather me and guolong, found the source of all my troubles.. My anchor point..!! The anchor was on the wrong side of the nose.. It's either my bow arm, my release or my anchor point that gives me problems.. but was cut short from my euphoria of shooting.. had to go for lunch with the gang..


Then off to more shooting.. got my form back so was happy shooting at the pins to regain my aiming confidence.. then i joined kailin and christine with their taking down of scores.. So there we were the 3 of us.. shooting a 40cm face at 18m.. damn hard to shoot lehh.. as sam and yazid would like to put it.. coz the target paper so darn small.. Everytime we retrieved.. I always looked to the other board at the other archers.. And somehow i looked over at rachel and her Beman carbon arrows.. wwwoooo.. carbon arrows sia.. the only carbons allowed in standard class.. And i watched as she had trouble pulling her arrows out of the board.. And also watch in agony as that dumb asshole taufiq who thinks he's so clever and helpful.. actually bend rachel's arrows as he pulled them out for her.. i was like "tsk tsk" and shook my head.. then i went over to sarcastically say that rachel's arrows bent.. then go spinning it in front of rachel and taufiq.. Damn.. beman arrows expensive arrows like any other carbon arrows.. and he can bend it like that.. walao.. honestly.. if u take one of rachel's arrows and try spinning them.. u can actually see how badly bent there are.. And all thanks to that "helpful" taufiq.. Honestly.. i don't like his i-know-everything attitude.. and he believes he's actually helping adelia with her form when he's making it even worse for her.. I just told adelia to change her sight, change her grip, twist her arm in and to work on her release and she's was shooting fine alrdy.. No need to do those "act cute" stuff to act like u know everything about archery.. it ain't gonna change anything..


so i shot together with christine and kailin.. taking down our scores.. walao.. now huiting also call me Hafiz-si.. thanks ahh kailin and christine... hahahahahahahaha.... So just shot and shot.. Chinyan was also shooting on the same board.. She was tuning her bow.. she upping to C-class mahh.. got all those plunger, stabs, steps thingys that she has to adjust to.. she really gave me some great advice.. Thx chinyan..!! She said.. that i should see all yellow.. and that really worked..!! I was shooting my last few ends with and average of 23/30.. good sia.. Thx again chinyan..!! So.. tabulated our scores.. christine got 167/300.. kailin got 146/300 and i got 197/300... Really a great improvement for me.. the last time i shot i got 135/300.. so there's a major improvement of 62 points there.. woooo..!! chinyan challenged me to a shoot out.. so i accept lerr.. it's a real honour to shoot against team captain lehh... so i shot.. my first arrow ended at 1.. aarrgghhh..!! then followed by 10 and 8.. that adds up to 19.. chinyan got 21.. walao.. only 2 points..!! damn.. why did i have to buang my arrow until like that wann..?!?!? ahahaha..!! it was fun though.. unset field.. Played badminton.. then went off to dinner at tiong bahru..


Talked cock all thru the dinner sia.. Very funny...!!! So went home with shwajuan and guolong as usual.. talked about the funny things that we have ever come across while taking the MRT.. wow..!! never have i seen shwajuan laughed so much before.. and never have i seen guolong act so gay before.. LoL..!! hahahhahahahahahahaha...!! Real funny sia... It's great to be with them.. it really is.. so tmr got more training.. now i've finally weeded out my true mistakes.. I'm gonna shoot like crazy..!! eeeeeeeeeeeeeee........

*sigh*.. damn tired.. LoL..!! Had archery chalet over the past few days.. Overall it was fun.. Here's a breakdown of what happened over the 2 and a half days..


13/9


Met up with james, kailin and ahmad (the graduate) at the clubhouse at 1pm to help carry some stuff down.. Met up with connie, glenn, christine and derong at pasir ris mrt station.. We bought some snacks and drinks then we were on our way to the chalet. Checked in to the chalets and instantaneously plugged in ahmad's PS2 then we were off playing burnout 3.. Jack came and anthony came soon after.. Then we went off for our lunch.. Downtown east really has changed a lot from the last time that i ever went there.. Then yan xiang, rachel, minghui, adelia and jolene met us at the foodcourt.. so the number in the group increased.. Back to the chalet then to more Burnout.. LoL..!! Then guolong and BK came.. As usual.. plugging in their laptops then playing dota.. Clement came with his skates.. I was addicted to playing Def Jam that i was "banished" from the playing PS2.. LoL..!! So went outside and just plonked myself in a corner and talked cock with munweng.. Sam and bernice came.. Then at around 7-8pm.. (u don't really keep track of the time in chalets) the rest of my archery peeps came.. Timothy, rayson, ashley, chinyan, shwajuan and shimin. Then the party really started..


The two chalets were getting over-crowded.. so i took a walk with bernice, sam and BK along pasir ris beach.. talked about life and archery.. then we turned around from our route to return to the chalet but bumped into my archery peeps... they were taking a walk too.. so joined up with them.. somehow we all went to sit on one of those granite tidebreakers.. Me, rayson adelia and munweng went down to the waterside.. Damn.. the amount of pollution.. Ick.. disgusting.. the whole shoreline was lined with batches of dead seaweed.. the water has this layer of foam on it and it emitted one hell of a swampy smell.. then the sand isn't like ordinary sandy sand.. It was sticky and gooey.. like nestum like that.. every footstep we made sunk into the goo.. so disgusting.. so we sat down up upon the tidebreaker.. somehow i wandered away from the group and found myself sitting by the edge of the tidebreaker all alone.. I needed the space.. the atmosphere was perfect for soul-searching and deep thoughts.. So i just sat there, stared into the darkness of the wide sea and began to think..


As i sat there.. thoughts flooded my mind.. thought about the 5 things that my life used to revolve around.. Now only 4 things revolve around my life.. mann.. it really is stupid of me to give in to my feelings.. I knew the risk involved and yet i took it.. why does love have to involve so many risks and yet we take them..?? maybe coz love is irrational.. it makes u do things.. stupid things.. it really was foolish for me to fall in love again.. i was dumb for me to allow her to fall in love me.. I loved her so much.. yet i was never given an opportune moment to show her the love that i have for her.. i was patient yet frustrated.. and it had to end in such a confusing way.. now whenever i see her, a part of me dissipates.. i have to admit.. i still do have feelings for her.. it's not love.. it's just something else.. i dunno wat it is.. it's just something.. damn.. now this feeling of love is lost and i have no heart to love anyone else.. maybe i should be bad to ppl.. that way.. ppl won't praise me on how nice i am and there's no need fo love to occur coz everyone would be hating me.. but then again.. i can never be someone whom i am not.. i'm good natured and being nice is just my nature so i cannot be bad.. then again why is there a need to love when love has never gotten me anywhere but further down in life.. It really is foolish to love.. I can never go for my feelings.. then again.. i should never go for my feelings.. coz it'll end up like trash and u feel like crap.. what has love brought me except for pain and regret over the stupid actions that i make just to make the one i love happy when in the ultimate end they are the ones who bring me down.. damn.. i just hate falling in love.. i just hate it.. Fuck love.. it has brought me nothing and i believe it always bring me nothing.. fuck love..


I was broken up from my chain of thoughts when guolong came over.. he asked how i was and tried comforting me.. but as usual.. i told him that i was alright.. so he sat down beside me.. presumably allowing me to continue my chain of thoughts.. it was kinda nice of him though.. the student and the teacher sitting side by side.. in total silence immersed in their thoughts of the world.. since he sat beside me.. all thoughts of archery went thru my mind... How archery has changed my life in both better and for worse.. and how it really manages to help me in my life.. especially the focuing part.. How i've trained hard for the competition and how badly i wanna win it.. damn.. archery changed my life so rapidly.. later in the night the rest of my archery peeps decided to go over to Mcdonald's to eat.. but guolong chose to stay behind with me.. Only left with the two of us.. so we talked.. talked about life.. talk about archery... Now i know a whole lot more things both in archery and in life.. he really is like an "abang" to me.. He has done so much in my life.. We somehow layed back and found ourselves lying on the hard granite.. looking up into the cloudy night sky talking about our lives.. Somehow.. we decided to watch the sun rise..


14/9


Then the others came back from Mcdonald's... then it was around 1am.. It was so darn quiet that we could hear them even before we could see them.. then they said that they were in search of us.. coz they figured we returned to the chalet.. Then guolong told them that we were staying up to watch the sun rise.. And they wanted to join us.. so they sat down with us too.. Chinyan turned her phone's mp3 on to add some song to the dead silence.. somehow.. again.. i found myself wandering from the group and sitting in the same spot where i was a few minutes ago.. this time shwajuan came to my side.. we talked.. the rest of my night there was just spent sitting there and thinking.. the others played taiti and declare.. or wandered around the concrete pavement of the beach.. And then at around 7am.. sunlight streaked across the sky.. then we searched for the red streaks that pinpointed its location and went after it.. the sun rise was beautiful.. a red ball of flame rising from the horizon.. it was a beautiful sight..


We had breakfast and went back to the chalet.. we tried to get any possible moments to sleep.. and i was woken up by clement who was actually trying to catch a glimpse of me under my habit of sleeping with a blanket over my head.. sensitive sleeper mahh.. i shocked him when i woke up.. then he said that the gang was going to wild wild wet.. so i joined my peeps.. shwajuan, shimin, chinyan, rayson, derong, guolong, sam, yazid, BK, me and clement..


It was my first time to wild wild wet.. so was rather noob at it.. we tried all the attractions.. the ular lah ride i think was the favourite coz everyone was shouting and screaming down whole ride.. and we tried it many times.. have to say.. it was fun.. but lacks the kick in it.. no thrill.. then we all played this stupid rafting game in the tide pool.. it was funny.. everyone was aiming for rayson.. LoL..!! Then we were off to the shiok river.. then again it was that silly rafting game.. LoL..!! then we tired this ride.. i dunno wat exactly it's called..but i partnered with guolong.. we had to sit in a float facing each other and the float was to go thru this half-pipe.. It was fun.. coz my back was facing the front so got more thrill in the ride.. it was fun..!!


Went back to the chalet.. washed up.. had lunch over at the foodcourt then did our own stuff.. somehow.. i went to sleep again.. damn tired lerr.. i woke to the BBQ starting.. washed up and joined the others.. basically munweng, ryan and lin feng were the ones pangkang-ing the food.. but i have to say it.. ryan and lin feng are damn noob at it.. but at least ryan tried to do something.. unlike lin feng who was paying attention to every chowta detail.. LoL..!! So i cracked my knuckles then went over to get things done right.. LoL..!! Guolong and me both share a common thing.. cooking..!! LoL..!! we dominated the pit along with munweng.. pangkang-ing stingray and chicken wings.. The year 2s didn't join us though.. they were having their 1st committee meeting.. when the meeting was over.. some 2 hours later.. then did they start to bbq their food.. soon everyone settled down.. some went to sleep.. some watched TV.. some played dota.. some continued bbq-ing like anthony who was constantly calling for me to help him pangkang the food.. and some played mahjong..


15/9


when anthony was done with his eating.. we went in to take in the aircon.. timothy, chinyan, shimin and anthony soon played mahjong and i stood there and watched.. soon i found myself learning the game and then playing it..!! LoL..!! Pong.. i was pong-ing all the way.. i won three times though.. it was nice.. u learn a lot of things in archery club except for archery.. LoL..!!
At about 450am.. munweng and i decided to clean up the barbeque and the area outside.. so we cleaned the mess up.. later we found ourselves having front row seats watching to young cats doing a "trash-talking staredown" as i would like to call it.. in the end there was no catfight.. the black cat jsut cowered and ran away.. boring.. LoL..!! My peeps then started to packing their stuff.. we wanted to leave in the early morning.. so after packing and rummaging in the dark.. we set off for home at about 6am.. the train ride was long and sleepy.. but got the ever so hyper ashley, who's the only guy in the gang who slept, talking non-stop.. guolong was bobbing on his seat as he succumbed to sleep.. one by one we all got down.. left me for the last person.. shwajuan got down at lakeside.. i walked home from the interchange as usual.. damn.. i just hate selfish singaporeans who think they own everything jsut becoz they pay taxes.. bloody stupid and arrogant.. lucky i was too tired to pursue the issue further..


So here i am.. typing all this down.. and battling head-bobbing sleep..
Archery chalet was fun.. i had a great time..

It was fun today.. I went for achery training but there were only ashley and yan xiang.. So we decided to go watch the seniors shoot at the PPCC competition..


We didn't know the way there so we tried to figure a way there.. Not before we went to buy ourselves some food.. And on the way back to the mrt station.. met huiting.. or rather she found us.. the reason she came down is that she wanted to see this guy.. LoL..!! And i kept on disturbing her about it.. LoL..!! So i called christine to ask for directions.. As we waited.. we met with yazid and sam.. sam was using the mrt toilet coz the one at the ppcc outdoor shooting range is rather.. rather.. Diirrrtttyy... LoL..!! So instead of waiting for christine, kailin and james to come.. we followed yazid and sam there..


Mann.. The place is really one run down area.. The grass.. gosh.. so long.. the place really like one world war 2 leftover building.. The standard class archers were shooting wen we arrived.. I really pity timothy, rayson and anthony.. And i really feel sorry for rayson.. cheer up dude.. They got knocked out by a team who was added in at the last minute.. So rayson was really upset with the organisers'.. Cheer up mann..


The gurls did well today.. even though they were like always seem to be losing hope.. Then it rained.. The rain was really heavy.. But we all saw a spectacular sight.. It was the sight of the rain cooling the hot concrete floor and with steam emitting from the ground.. it was a wonderful sight.. Since the rain didn't stop.. they continued with the shooting.. And i really think the gurls work well under pressure.. coz they scored so much.. leading by 20 points ahead of the others.. They won Gold..!!! ahahaahhahaha...!!! So shwajuan.. u got to finally bring something worthwhile home.. Gold somemore.. LoL..!!


The guys - derong, clement and leonard- won gold too.. So we SP archers tio own our greatest rival, TP at team events.. LoL..!! All the other polys got their own archery coach sia.. SP got no coach yet we can tio own archers from polys which have coaches.. very impressed and proud of this fact.. heheheheheheheh...


The C-class.. well.. wasn't that well.. but all the more fun coz my teacher guolong is in it.. He won a bronze along with jack (the year 1) and BK.. Jack (ex-QM), yazid and sam won silver.. So all good for the archers then.. hehehehehehehhehe.. Then it was the open and compound class.. Rather amazed by the compound class.. All very nice compound bows.. hehehehe.. great sia.. the feeling of watching it was great..


Congrats to all the senior archers..!! Ya'll have certainly done well.. Now it's my turn to do SPAC proud in future.. Thru hardwork and consistency.. hehehehe...

Archery SPDP..

The last day of the 2 days of SPDP.. How was it..? It rocks..!! Hell yeah it rocks..!! Coz u know why..?? Coz both my archers got 1st and 2nd.. both mann.. both.. Yes ahh..!! LoL..!!

For the first hour of SPDP... The SPDPers.. (as i would like to call them).. were given time to shoot the 10m boards.. Gosh.. Many graduate seniors came down.. Ee yang, Ahmad, Ethan, Glenn and even Ching kuang (is that how u spell it..??) a.k.a Monkey.. So after the 1st hour.. There was this competition to see archers were to qualify.. My guys.. They got 28 and 25.. Great huh.. Great teacher mahh.. LoL..!! So it was down to 10 shortlisted archers.. Then they were to shoot balloons to enter the final.. LoL..!! When my first student got a balloon.. I shouted from the steps where i was sitting.. And everyone as usual laughed at me.. Then it was down to the last balloon and my other student, the one who got 28, had not burst a balloon.. then he was the last one left standing.. whispered a few words to him for him to rmb his anchor point then he shot the balloon.. Mann was i filled with euphoria.. I started to run onto the field and start shouting and doing a victory dance.. LoL..!! Everyone was laughing at my antics.. And christine said that i was more excited than my archers.. She's damn right.. LoL..!! The it was the final.. 5 balloons were to be shot.. My 28 pointer guy, Fursham, got a balloon.. And again i celebrated.. LoL..!! that means he's first.. Coz the others didn't shoot a balloon down in one end.. In the second end.. My remaining 25 pointer guy got a balloon.. That means he got second.. AAAAAAAhhhhhh.....!!!!!!!!!!!!! I yelled by the steps and pointed to the sky.. LoL..!! Victory..!! My two archers got 1st and 2nd..!!! Aaaaaaahhhh...!!!! Boy was everyone laughing at me again.. LoL..!!

So they got their prizes.. Mini arrows and then took some pictures..

Lunch was with the graduate seniors.. talked about glenn and ahmad's army life.. Then went back for the second batch.. since i wasn't appointed to teach.. i spent the time interacting with the graduate seniors.. talk about archery.. Talk about the different bows.. talk about improving form.. Monkey was using Easton X10s.. aaahhhh...!! Easton X10..!! One arrow costs about $60-$63.. aahhh..!!! And he when he dropped one of them i was like clutching my chest.. aaahhh... a $60 arrow drop on the ground... Aaaahh.. Pain sia.. And monkey was right.. Feel the power in your hands.. coz when he allowed ashley to shoot his bow and one of his X10s.. Ashley was shaking and perpiring profusely.. Then monkey allowed me to draw his 44 poundage Green Horn Victory bow.. waaahhh.. heavy sia.. i could hold his heavy bow.. i could predraw it.. but when it was to come to the full draw.. i couldn't pull anymore.. LoL..!! I was bringing it to my face.. i could only draw until my wrist was touching my face.. waaahhh.. such high poundage sia.. pain.. LoL..!! Maybe i can go for higher poundage bows.. that's what monkey said after i pulled it.. heheheheheh... maybe go for 36 pounds.. maybe can get to use that "monster" 36 pound wooden bow in the club.. LoL..!! Yeah.. since i could shoot 30 pounds.. i think i can go for 36 pounds..

So after SPDP.. went to play badminton with ahmad, kailin and christine.. then they went off and i was left playing with tsyr harn.. LoL..!! We played with two rackets in both our hands.. LoL..!! New breed of badminton players..Then ashley and nick came so we played doubles.. then we went home.. So tmr finally got some real training..

Archery..
Again..!! LoL..!!

Had SPDP today.. Singapore Polytechnic Development Programme.. So we year 1s had to teach the ppl who signed up for archery.. It's basically a two hour two day session.. It was really awkrad to be teaching archery.. LoL..!! I have to admit.. i felt weird at first.. But once the euphoria of teaching archery and the aspect of felling how guolong felt teaching me.. i took to teaching archery like a duck to water.. I think 've subconsciously picked up some of guolong's master teachings.. i'm beginning to be a good archery teacher.. Coz when i taught my 2 guys, after a few ends they could shoot yellow.. and they can get all 3 arrows into the yellow.. So not only was i impressed with their shooting.. i was rather impressed at how i was able to teach archery to an extent that during my first teaching experience i could get my two guys to shoot yellows.. Shouting the commands was fun.. LoL..!! I don't know why actually.. it's kinda fun.. And yes.. christine and kailin.. u 2 high gurls.. i shout loud..

There was this lecturer who's also and archer.. Gosh..!! He's good..!! He really was shooting an antique bow.. Made by Yamaha.. yes that brand that manufactures motorcycles and music instruments make bows.. Now they don't though.. coz samick took over their bow manufaturing.. And he was shooting fearsome looking hunting arrows..!! And he's a nice person too.. Gosh..!! It would really be great to have him as one of my lecturers.. That'll be great..

Friday prayers was a headache.. I mean a real headache.. Not only was the climate hot and humid.. but when i was in the middle of solat sunah after the first azan.. i went down to sujud but the guy in front of me got up from his sujud.. so his butt rammed into my forehead in a backward-upward motion.. my head literally snapped back.. Damn.. That hurt alot.. then got headache ah.. pain sia.. the man got apologise ahh.. i smiled back.. not his mistake mahh.. accidents do happen... so i wasn't at all paying attention to the khutbah coz i was dealing with that mind numbing headache.. gosh.. did it hurt..

Went back to school.. Realised that there were lesser ppl for the 2nd round of SPDP.. so i just sat and talked cock with ashley.. I couldn't stand it.. it was damn boring.. so i got down to help lilian with her student.. She (the student) was always shooting to the bottom right, in the black and white region of the 122 face.. but when i took over.. i made some adjustments and viola.. She was shooting reds and yellows.. So i'm really beginning to teach like guolong.. I'm beginning to be a "master coach" as guolong would put it.. LoL..!! I think i've made almost every mistake in the archery handbook and overcomed them that i know what and how to deal with teaching archery.. so it pays to be learning from your mistakes in archery.. went back home with ashley and shwajuan.. the walk home with shwajuan was funny... we started to snap our fingers in a weird way.. so there we were snapping our fingers walking.. LoL..!! It really was funny.. Yes shwajuan.. i'm have a lot of wise things to say..

So tmr's another round of SPDP.. And the seniors won't be around coz got that PPCC competition..

C'mon SP Archers...!! Do your best..!! Go kick some ass..!! Bring something home to SPAC..!! Shwajuan and Guolong.. Do me proud..!! All the best..!!

Archery..
again.. i know u guys are getting bored reading my entries about archery.. maybe i'll change for once.. maybe not.. most probably not.. so.. too bad lorr.. hehehehehehe..

Archery today was say.. rather screwed up and frustratingly frustrating.. I found out that derong had changed my sight in the morning.. And i was like.."wat the fuck?!?!?".. How can he change my sight when i was on a high on saturday and sunday..?!?! How could he..?! So.. so.. so unfair.. it's just not fair.. I trained so hard to use that broken sight and now he gives me a working sight after i pleaded for a change waaaayyyyy back and no change was done.. so i train with the broken sight lor.. Then now.. walao.. go and change my sight.. i was distraught.. i was losing it.. never have i felt so helpless and hopeless before.. I was definitely losing it.. Honestly.. i was afraid of shooting.. i really was.. I was afraid of the sight.. i was afraid of losing myself.. i was afraid of losing my form which i trained so hard to regain.. The bowstring kept on hitting my arm.. It was painful i have to admit.. but watching my form deteriorate right before my eyes really hurt more.. I was crying inside.. i was losing it.. i was going crazy..

So i decided to de-stress by playing soccer.. Yeah.. i played soccer all to myself.. all alone.. it was fun.. it just feels so great to kick a ball once more.. too bad i gave up soccer alrdy.. how i miss those days.. oh well.. Ppl have to change to progress forward.. soccer is just pulling me back... so i have to let it go.. how sad.. it really is.. a passionate sport that i took up when i was young.. and now i'm giving it up.. *sigh*.. oh well.. there's archery for me now.. so after the de-stress session.. it was back to more shooting.. got the hang of using the sight.. shot for a short moment as compared to my other training days.. i was mentally and physically drained.. mentally drained for the most part.. So guolong persuaded me to stop shooting.. to call it a day.. so i stopped and watched the test flights of the "flying frenzy III".. it was funny.. it really was.. that brighten me up.. Everyone was taking bets on whr the glider would land.. LoL..!! It was funny.. it really was.. That cheered me up a bit.. So i sat there and watched the seniors and my fellow year 1s taking their shots.. Then one by one.. almost every senior came to ask me why i was so screwed up during training.. so the answer was pretty simple.. Readjusting to my new sight..

All my thanks to weiyi, ashley, derong, sam and of course guolong for helping me out.. Your advices were great and useful to me.. and also dictates on why archery is a mental sport.. So thx to ya'll once again.. I realise that the majority of the archery seniors have a lot of confidence in me.. wow..!! so flattered.. cannot gloat ahh.. later "kembang" then become over confident alrdy.. LoL..!!

Now i realise why sam doesn't want everybody to buy a Matrix.. LoL..!! Coz he wants to be the only one in SPAC using a matrix.. LoL..!! How arrogant.. LoL..!! And we all made fun of his efforts of trying to prevent us from buying it.. LoL..!! tsk tsk.. how selfish.. LoL..!! Too bad sam.. Shwajuan and I have made up our minds to go get a Matrix.. We aim for a GM first and if it's possible to get a matrix then we'll go for it.. so watch out sam.. Other Matrix users are coming ur way.. LoL..!!
Went home with guolong and shwajuan.. it was funny.. guolong was high and acting really gay.. LoL..!! So walked home with shwajuan.. talked about bows and our lives.. yes shwajuan i lead an unlucky life.. i'm quite used to it.. so to be sad over things like this is normal for me.. I'm a very unlucky person.. it's like i've been cursed over something that i never did.. Life is really that unfair..

Sh!t Happens..

I really think i cannot go gym anymore.. LoL..!! Sorry dzaki.. it's just that my whole holidays is filled up with archery training.. Tuesdays, thurdays, saturdays and sundays are archery training days.. I need to make use of the these days.. I need 'em to spend my last moments with my teacher,guolong, before he graduates.. I need his coaching.. I need his mentor-ing.. I need him.. I really, really need his teaching.. it's invaluable.. it's priceless.. he helped me regained my form back and that is one thing i'll forever thank him.. He also helped me improve my form.. eg the breathing technique.. He has also taught me how to get my arrows prepared, fletching, nocking, etc etc.. the only free days left for me are mondays, wednesdays and fridays.. And i can't spend it at the gym.. i need to rest and the travel fare is killing me.. LoL..!! Furthermore.. i realise that when i went to the gym and did back strengthening exercises, It really affects my archery form.. so that is one thing that i really don't want happening to my form.. I don't want anything happening to my form..

I wanna win that competition.. i really.. really.. really really do... Never have i felt so much desire.. I really want to win this competition.. Thru hardwork and consistency.. i believe i can win it.. I can win it.. I will win it.. LoL..!! So much desire.. I wanna stand upon the mountain of victory.. Proving to people what i'm capable off.. I wanna prove to people i can do it. Finally i can achieve something i really want in my life.. I want to win this competition.. I really do..

Condolences to The Crocodile Hunter Steve Irwin.. Rest in peace mate.. We will always remember your shows.. I mean i was really shocked.. Of all the dangerous animals that he worked woth he died to a stingray.. Oh.. the hypocrisy.. Looks like -- Even the smallest of things can really make a Big difference.. Rest in peace..

Archery.. again.. LoL..!! It's all about archery for this holidays.. it's just a wonderful sport..


The field was used by SPNCC so we played badminton at the sports hall.. Shimin somehow saw me in my moment of reconcilation.. so she comforted me lerr.. talked about this talked about that.. it was great talking to someone who understands what i'm going thru and how i'm feeling right now.. Thanks Shimin.. love ya jie jie.. the other jie jie (shwajuan) so sleepy.. LoL..!! Until play hide and seek with us.. what a family in archery.. LoL..!! I'm the youngest.. LoL..!!


Played badminton until about 1230 then we 'stole' the field.. Sunday no field booking mahh.. u get u use ahh.. Shot.. shot.. and shot.. somehow i still can't get my wicked grouping like yesterday.. I yelled a victory cry that scared rachel and christine.. sorry.. =(.. then they realised what i shouted for.. My grouping was so wicked.. three arrows touching each other side-by-side.. wicked.. Then they also squeal at how good a grouping i had.. LoL..!! gloat.. gloat..
Today's archery was hot.. the heat was unbearable.. 20m.. we shot pins until shimin gave us a 122 face.. practice for the internal competiton on the 23rd.. honestly.. i wanna win it.. first time in my life i've ever want to win the first place actually.. not for the prize but for the glory.. to smell the aroma of victory.. to stand victorious.. to make guolong proud of me.. to at least give him my thanks for teaching me so greatly by winning this competition.. thru consistency and hard work.. i believe i can do it and win this competition.. I will win this competition.. So we shot 122 face.. Derong asked us to record our shots.. so.. out of 10 ends of 3 arrows.. i got 253/300.. 84%.. very good.. by chinyan's standards.. not by mine.. LoL..!! Must aim high.. So can achieve high.. Kailin and Christine got 236 and 243 respectively i guess... good good.. *claps hands*..


So.. overall i had a good time.. shooting a target paper and recording it down.. it was great.. went home with shwajuan and tsyr harn.. the other's all went to Comex.. last day mahh... want to chase last minute sale.. LoL..!! Shwajuan.. u like matrix's good looks but don't like it's punchy feel and u want aerotec's stability but don't like aerotec's tec grip.. Huh??.. *imitates shwajuan's trademark blur face*.. LoL..!! Yes gurl.. the price of aerotec and matrix is really expensive and gives the feeling of wanting to kill ourselves.. i also want to try to get a matrix.. LoL..!! take kunai and stab our hearts.. *my trademark heart stabbing action*.. LoL..!! Maybe we should each buy a kunai then call ourselves "The Kunai Stabbers".. guolong, chinyan, shwajuan and me.. LoL..!! The Kunai Stabbers.. hahaha.. And yes shwajuan.. I'm going CCCCrrrrrrraaaaaazzzzaaaaayyyyyy...!!!


Do you ssssmmmmmeeeeeeeeeeeeeelllllllllllllllll wat The Fizz is cookin'..?!?!?!?

Damn..

Guess it really isn't even worth following ur own feelings afterall.. Everything seems fine then ends up in a heap of crap.. Damn.. I'm sorry for all the trouble i caused you.. I'm truly sorry.. Pls forgive me..

Guess now u people know that when Hafiz is all damn quiet.. Something's wrong.. I would like to give my thanks to dzaki, jumadi, ahmad and sam.. my brothers.. always there for me.. though u guys aren't so effective enough.. coz usually i'm the one who cheers u guys up.. Kinda funny actually.. the person who always helps needs the help and you guys are damn noob at it.. anyways.. appreciate it though.. And thanks to yazid, shwajuan and chinyan.. who managed to see the silence in me.. and actually ask whether there's something wrong or not.. Thanks for cheering me up though i didn't even tell u guys what was actually wrong.. thanks alot.. Guess i was really cranky.. i lambasted everything and everyone who irritated me.. I'm sorry leonard.. i'm not having a good time right now and most certainly not in a good mood.. so forgive me for all those impulsive actions of mine.. forgive me.. At most of all.. I would like to thank God.. For instilling the patience, the love, the courage in me.. I could do nothing against what has been destined.. I only accept it in open arms and a persevering heart.. God has always been there for me.. Comforting me when i have no one to go to.. always speaking in my heart.. Always..

I'm not angry.. i'm not happy.. i'm not sad.. i dunno wat i'm feeling.. How can I, lest even a normal person, be happy over such a thing as this..?? None can.. How can i be sad when i'm helpless against wat God wills, i just have to accept it, furthermore my heart has been broken too many times it cannot break anymore.. it's like it's all gone.. It's like i'm hollow.. And how can i be angry at someone i love..?? I can't.. I just can't..

Ppl never give me a chance..