lethargic.. and suffering.. heh..

lethargy is taking its toll on me.. all this time cooped up in my room studying.. i'm distracted.. i'm restless.. for a person with a high metabolic rate, my body is accustomed to dishing out tonnes of energy.. the downside to that is WHEN i don't use all this energy.. my muscles become weak.. my muscles.. they expect high usage of them..

and when i don't use them.. biologically.. they'll give out lactic acid which ultimately develops into lethargy.. i become all weak and tired.. i need to use all this pent up energy.. i need to do something vigorous.. i need to play soccer.. i need to shoot.. i need to do something physical.. i need to run..

i'm suffering mann.. ahahahaha..

NUS Indoor 2007


a compy i so wanted to go.. but heck.. i'm not in it.. so wat the hell..

and so.. a wonderful surprise to me and to the person as well.. a resounding victory given that it's her first external competition..

all those hardwork she and i put in.. paid off valuably.. all those times i helped her.. observed in detail her form.. changed it.. monitored her.. the minutes i put in thinking.. going thru her form all over again.. analyzing her form.. making changes to it.. all the moral support.. everything.. everything has paid off.. paid off greatly.. =)

a resounding victory.. standard female 1st.. so so so proud of her.. haaaahhh..!!! so proud, so proud, so proud..!!! have u ever had the feeling..?? the feeling of the fruits of ur labour turning out MORE than u expected..?? It's a wonderful ggrrreeeeeaaaattt feeling.. haaah..

but some other thoughts cloud my mind otherwise..

so proud.. so proud.. more is yet to come.. the time has come for her.. and i'll be there to be with her all the way.. all the way..

Friends come and go.. But friendships stay eternal..


yeah.. friends do come and go.. no matter how close u may be.. each of our different lives lead us down different paths.. separated but one things holds us friends together.. friendship.. yeah.. friendship.. the undying loyalty to those whom u favour and enjoy being with.. the friends who were there for u.. the friends who were there to help u.. the friends who were there to share the happiness with u.. the friends who changed ur world.. or maybe the friends who just make ur life worthwhile just being friends.. the smiles, the laughter, the tears, the tantrums ( 0.0 ) that you and ur friends had.. hah..

yeah.. friends come and go.. esp for male friends.. 'forced' to serve the nation.. National Service.. every singaporean young man's life always goes thru this period of time.. a test of their loyalty to their country, a time of great courage and perseverence.. a time of rigorous activities that determine the leaders from the men..

A couple of my friends are going off to NS now.. close friends.. best of friends.. Guolong.. should be reporting to camp right now.. my great archery student coach.. gonna miss him.. hope he comes back all lean and mean and muscular.. ahahahhaha.. well.. MunWeng's already in.. wonder how he's doing.. hope it's well.. a month from now.. Sam and Yazid are reporting in.. and by the end of July.. Boon Keng's turn..

well.. really gonna miss them.. wonder how they'll look like..?? Buzzcut and lean.. ahahahah.. my day will come.. wonder who'll miss me..

holidays..

and so.. the holidays are here.. not much of a holidays.. my MSTs are right after the holidays.. so i'll be spending most of the holidays studying.. the first week would be down to enjoying my holidays and training.. the second week.. i'll transform into a nerd.. studying.. studying.. studying.. 5 papers over 5 days.. sian diao..

NUS compy is just around the corner and i'm not participating in it..!! how cool is that..?!?! AHAHAHHA..

come to think of it.. it really is a blessing in disguise for myself.. shaun has been teaching me and changing my form as well.. during this time period.. the reason for him changing my form.. my original form had some elements of his form so might as well change it fully to his.. and now.. in 2 weeks.. i have fully changed my form to that of shaun's.. and now we're like the carbon copy of each other.. kekekekeke.. thx shaun..!! i hate to say this.. but again.. it's all down to practice.. (i just keep on repeating this.. damnit.)

hah.. wat else.. hmm..

arrows.. ahh yes.. arrows.. getting them soon.. mid-august..!! oooo.. this is gonna be so cool..!! and my financial plans for it is going oh so well.. hmm.. IVP is around the same period.. should i stick to my plats or my new arrows..?? hmm.. i dunno.. iiiiiii ddooooonnnn'''tttt kkknnnoooowwww.. *head shakes*.. kekekekekekeke..

well.. since i've got nothing much to write.. let's talk abt other things.. Silat IVP should have ended now.. Falina got 5th placing in regu.. and Hadi broke his fingers in a sparring match but won it 3-0..!! too bad he can't go thru coz of his fingers.. wat a waste.. tsk tsk..

hmm.. wat else.. yeah.. finally went to FC6 to eat.. ate with falina and aizat.. cheap good food.. but too far away to consider it.. met erianti though.. and she still owes me a lunch appointment.. overdue giler..

hmm.. dunno wat came into me.. volunteered myself to try to do something crazy.. well.. no harm trying.. maybe i can do it.. it really is mutually beneficial.. i'll give it a good try.. but don't count on it happening.. i said i'll give it a good try..

nothing much to talk abt.. maybe i'll come up with something wise to rant abt..

enjoy the holidays everyone..!!

hmm...

where do i begin.. i long for myself to write a super long entry.. even some of readers have started to complain abt my irregular posts.. kekekeke..

hmm.. lemme see..

archery.. well.. i wasn't selected for NUS.. a real blow to me.. and i wanted so badly to go.. if i only i didn't screw it all up.. oh well.. wat has been done.. has been done.. and i promised wymer and vanessa to be at NUS.. well.. i just said i'll be there.. being there doesn't mean i have to compete.. but i really wanted to compete.. i'm sorry wymer.. i'm sorry vanessa.. i tried my best.. and failed.. but i'll be at NUS.. to support u guys as well as my peeps.. looks like i have to look forward to the next compy.. whenever that may be..

and upon knowing that that year 1 samuel is sent for the compy in place of clement when samuel never attended the second trial really demoralised me.. and when shaun told me abt it.. i could feel my heart constrict.. it's like a knife lodged itself in my beating hear.. it's like some sort of betrayal.. the least that could be done was to ask the other competitors who DID attend the 2nd trial whether they would want to take part in the compy.. that's the least that could be done.. i feel so betrayed.. damnit.. fuck it.. and yes.. i said it.. fuck it.. FUCK IT..!! and why the fuck did i put so much effort in training and participating in the 2nd trial when someone who never participated in the 2nd one gets chosen instead..!! why the fuck is that..?!?! is this wat the club calls fair..?? IS IT..?!?! it's the same sort of unfairness that prompted me to defect from the club.. yes.. i admit it.. i once had this sick thought of quitting and defecting from the club to join another.. but i changed my mind when i saw in perspective how thru this club i am wat i am today.. unfairness.. if it's the way things are run in the club.. so be it.. retribution would be swift and hard.. and strike the hardest on those in most guilt and wrong.. retribution.. when unjust actions are carried out most willingly and without repent.. then those unjustly acted upon curse those who do so upon them.. and divine retribution would be swift.. and the only thing that would reverse such hatred and vengeance would be forgiveness.. a forgiveness that may never be given..

damnit.. i am a person who doesn't believe in exacting vengeance.. but i am powerless against retribution which comes in accordance to the unjust and bad things that ppl have done over others..

haiz.. let's put the bad things aside.. now the good things..
=)

somehow.. i've gotten closer with shaun.. the ex-national youth archer.. it started out with me asking him for his opinion on navigators.. then it continued with me wanting to shoot alongside him on the same board.. then now.. it's close to the extend that he's been teaching me and i've changed my form abit.. he didn't actually teach that much.. he just gave me advice and showed me a new technique.. and now.. my form looks almost that of his.. really.. it's a nice technique that he taught me.. really nice feeling to it.. and i caught the concept behind it very fast.. like shaun would put it.. " Only teach for 15 minutes and u already changed.. " .. and yes.. it tool only 15 minutes for me to catch the concept behind the technique that he taught.. wouldn't want to explain the technique here.. if u do want.. ask me.. i have it all written down in great detail in my logbook..

great and nice things have been going on as of late.. and love every single moment of it.. i am greatful.. i am greatful.. patience will see me thru.. it always does..

all the best for those taking MSTs..!! =)
jiayou..!! u guys can do it..!!