Nothing much to blog about..
Just alot of decisions to be made and choices to be.. erm.. chosen..?
Choices that involve money and expenditure.. =(

Ouhya.. I've finally decided to create another blog.
A sort of progression blog to note down the progress i've made in the multitude of activities that i do.
I think it's a good move.
Blog's on the side should you want to have a look --->

And one more last thing to end this off..

The ONLY, ever reason for me to watch the Twilight series Movies is to watch Alice Cullen..
OMG, i'm in love with her.. she's like.. The One.. she embodies wat i want in a girl..
Ashley Greene FTW.

Petite

Pixie-like

A graceful gait

Bubbly

Sporty

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and i'm featured in today's The New Paper, Saturday August 28 2010 pg 16.

Nice.

Empire Events, uber awesome..

this is gonna be a random post.. nothing to do with my daily activities.. just simply random..

Just something different.. from now on, things are going to change for me..

I just don't know how to lay out this bag of snakes. It's like many random variables culminate into one final product. And that product is a soon-to-be-changed me.

Obnoxious quips by people that had a really, great and deep impression on myself. On how the way I dress, how the way I talk, how the way I interact with others -- on how I'm different from others. I have to admit that I'm deeply affected by it. It's like that feeling of some sort of sharp pain in the chest that makes your skin have this weird tingling feel when someone just randomly quips something about you. I bet most of you have encountered this feeling before. It's not nice. And the not so nice part of it is when you begin to question yourself.

Confidence that have been brimming and shining for most of the time suddenly just gets shadowed and stalled, and you just shrink and slouch into insecurity. Every single detail about ourselves suddenly becomes magnified and we begin to judge and question how our actions and our looks are seen from the eyes of others. Little do we know that every time we doubt ourselves it kills our confidence one layer at a time. Or rather we know it, just that we refuse to accept that fact.

But as we question ourselves. We pain ourselves to look right, to look normal, to be normal in the eyes of others. It's always about looking right in the eyes of others. And when we do it, it feels real fake , it feels plastic. Even though we look right in the eyes of others, we don't feel right.

I just can't stand having my confidence being eaten away after working so hard to nurture it. I don't like it at all. So i begin to question my actions.

Why do I have to accomodate for others? Why can't they accomodate to me? It may sound rather selfish but I pretty much prefer the latter. I bet you, the one reading this, will have something inside you that just agrees with me.

But look at it this way, the first question is to demand you to change yourself to suit others. Let's change the perspective, do others change to suit you. Most certainly they won't. And why should they? That's why I prefer the second one.

I can't change myself. I am me. I am what I am. People will have to adapt to me being with them. Whatever I do is what defines me. This is the change that's about to happen. No more accomodating for others. I just want to be me.

As I see it. Standing tall and firm to being who I am brings out my confidence. Nothing beats confidence, really. You feel good, you feel great. You walk around with your back straight and your head upright. People enjoy being with you coz the confidence just oozes energy and people like this energy.

This is me making a stand. This is me being ME. This is me coming out of my shell. This is me. And this is the change.

HOKAY..!!!

was informed on wednesday that the whole SME team was activated to help in the YOG.. Help to usher. it was on a saturday. so weekend burnt.

on thursday, we were informed that we would get the friday off for saturday's event.

come saturday, informed that we weren't suppose to do ushering but to actually just fill up the stands with our attendance.

So in other words --- FREE TICKET TO YOG OPENING CEREMONY...!!!

some of my team members didn't want to watch, saying that it's a waste of time etc etc.. Again.. complaints and whines.. but they don't know how much a ticket actually costs.. $80 the cheapest. i don't know how much mine was.. and they also don't appreciate the fact that this event marks the start of one of the world's first sporting events and it's happening here, in Singapore.. not many will have the chance to catch it.. so why not just watch it..

Okay so some people are not appreciative of things.. i don't care. that's their opinion to keep. i have mine..

So i took some of my friends tickets, since they're not gonna watch it.. then i called over some friends - Zhibin and Kok Wei over to watch it with me..

Really really nice event.. really liked it alot..

the atmosphere's great.. there's a nice mix of locals and foreigners in the stands so there was a big blend of culture and how the foreigners are such a sporting people and their sportsmanship somehow rubbed on to the locals so much that literally everyone was standing throughout the whole thing.. including me..

damn nice experience.. beyond words i should say.. there's a few pics on facebook.. have to look thru kokwei's album.. and also a couple of vids too..

YOG Singapore 2010 will be a good event..

All the best to all participants.. keep the flames of sportsmanship alive..!!

and also..

goodluck to my brother who's representing singapore in hockey..

With regard to a post i made on my birthday, I have decided to re-start paintball.

So when i got my huge lump-sum-mega-back-pay allowance, i bought myself some paintball stuff to get my game going again. Went out with Sam shopping on saturday. Didn't go for archery since most of the club went for YOG rehearsal.

Oh ya, another factor to me skipping archery is that I'm recovering from a shoulder injury. It doesn't hurt when i shoot but whenever i raise my arm or any other action that involves moving my shoulder, it hurts. It doesn't hurt that much, it's just freaking irritating that's all. So i think a week of rest should help in the recovery -- i hope. =X

Ok that aside. When i came home that saturday. I had a lil chat on msn with yazid and guess wat.. the following day yazid was gonna play with his team..!!! that's damn nice..!! So i asked if i could join him.. and so i tagged along..

Back at RD. Wow. So much has changed. So i sat in that little hut outside with some guys. Chee Yong still remembered me just forgotten my name. Sham was similar. There was a heartbreaker there too by the name of Derek. Damian remembered me. Nice to see him too. And KiKo.. lol.. he was like "AII..!! What are you doing here..??!! " lol.. i'll be a man and say it.. I miss them lots.. lol..

Then yazid came together with kenny. Kenny - nice guy, captain of the Heartbreakers i think. Surprisingly, there were many teams present. Sham's Contract Killers were there, A newly formed team the Ragdolls, some guys from Outlawz and the Seekers.

Since there was an overwhelming attendance of teams.. it was decided to forgo the drills and proceed with skirmishes. Since the heartbreakers had a large attendance.. a few of us had to top-up the Outlawz.. so since i was new, the heartbreakers asked me to play with the outlaws along with yazid..

And guess wat.. since the outlaws already had a snake player.. the position i was always playing everytime i go into the field.. they asked me to play on the dorito side.. which is a position i've never played before.. nonetheless it was something new to try..

And wow.. the feeling of playing paintball again.. so fun.. the sound of the impact of 2 guys pinning me down in my dorito was exhilarating.. lol.. the shooting was fun.. the new HPA tanks realy need some getting used to.. and i did a mistake that i always do.. calling myself out when i got shot but it bounced.. damn mistake..

so for the whole day i played on the dorito side and i have come to enjoy being on that side.. it's not as pressurising as the snake side where everybody is out to get you.. we played a number of games..

i think i did really well on the dorito side.. Kenny liked how fast i was.. so did everybody from heartbreakers.. they commended on my speed.. nice =)

it was a great day of paintball.. I would like to again thank yazid, chee yong and the rest of the heartbreakers for letting me play with you guys.. maybe i could join you guys.. just maybe.. when other committments allow.. but yeah.. it'll be great..

looking forward to the next paintball game..

on another much IMPORTANT note..!!

ONE MORE YEAR TO SEE PINKY..!!! AHAHHAHA..!!!

heck. fasting month starts on wednesday.. gonna be a real test of will being in the army and fasting..

HAPPY NATIONAL DAY TO ALL..!!

Humans are creatures of habit. Choosing to do things on a routine basis and activities which comfort them the most. And here in my unit, in my camp, for the past 2 months that I have been here, Comfort has been a routine.

The occasional strenous, labour-intensive activities are done in support of major events such as Tekong Challenge and Firepower Demonstration. And still being in this bubble of comfort. There are a few, MANY, complaints by certain individuals on how "We're not suppose to do this.." or "3SGs are not suppose to be doing this".. Just to name a few of the multitude of whineying. 3SGs are NOT suppose to be whining.

I think the most annoying complaint would be when we were activated to report in the morning without breakfast to setup a station and all I hear is complaints and whines on how they are hungry. But on normal days, when there's nothing to do, these particular individuals DON'T wake up for breakfast. Puzzling isn't it?

We 3rd Sergeants (3SG) did not go through 5 months of intensive training just to be in a bubble of comfort. They trained us to do things beyond our own capabilities. We did not go through the sticky mud, the cold rain and the scorching sun to relax and lie in our beds. We did not go through intense body aches, drenched in sweat and fighting fatigue just to be comfortable. They trained us to be physically tough and mentally alert. They trained us to be specialists. WE DID NOT TRAIN FOR COMFORT.

Sometimes we humans are ungrateful beings as well. Not thankful of the privelege of comfort when finally called upon for duty. I always believe life is about balance. There will be good times and bad. There will be times of great challenge and also of great comfort. God is fair and I appreciate that the most.

We've had our time of comfort. Now's the time to step up to the challenge. It's going to be a hell of a month ahead, not to mention that it'll be the fasting month as well. Back to back high key events and hopping from one company to the next, day in, day out.


We are 3rd Sergeants. And this is what we're supposed to do.




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