Now the holidays are here (Ok.. so it's technically NOT a holiday).
Ok.. lemme restart it again..

The few days of wat's deemed as my holidays before my ITP starts is pretty much occupied. Occupied with archery training and more archery training. I have very few days left to train leading up to NTU Open.

And now. I'm pretty much obsessed and possessed by the will to increase my performance and perform with a content average score. I want to win something at NTU if it's possible. Team event is the most likely option for me to get something. I will train hard individually so that my team can make it to the TKOs. I want to shoot and shoot and never stop shooting until NTU Open. I'm gonna be selfish with my own shooting until NTU Open. I just wanna do well for NTU Open. It has been a long time since i competed. And now i'm back and on a bigger stage of competition. Up against national archers and well-known archers. It's all up here in the mind. I have to pysche myself up for this event. I know it doesn't seem convincing enough with wat i write here of my desire to perform but it's different now. I feel it more and it's kinda hard to express it in words.

Over the past few weeks.. Several events have brough back memories of a happier past.. Damn sad lah. it's just so so sad. Can't seem to express this sadness too. It's truly a deep solemn sadness.


The happier past is history.
Now. it's just selfishness with myself.
Giving in was never right when u lose urself in the end.


Obsessed and Possessed..