Dunno how to begin this entry..

let's start with the latest archery camp.. how was it..?? it was nice.. i guess.. i was appointed the role as game master along with jonathan.. pretty tough job coz the time in the camp is spent playing games.. due to the bad weather, logistics (termites..) and administrative difficulties the REAL archery training had to be cancelled.. hmm.. seen some potential.. dunno why now i've decided to teach and shoot at the same time.. if guolong could do it.. then so can i.. i think.. there's this particular guy (dowan to mention name) from nadiah's group that i'm particularly interested in having him as my student.. he's the current one that i want to have as a student so far.. i see potential in him.. hope that chinyan would allow me to have him as my student upon my request.. a new batch of year 1s would be coming down this sat.. maybe see other potential talents.. and also the guai lan non-SP bred archers would be turning up as well.. so.. i'll see whether their stuck up attitudes fit their shooting..

well.. mainly played games.. so there was nothing that much interesting for me to do.. since my life is all about archery.. was rather disappointed that there was not much time spent on shooting.. THE WHOLE MAIN OBJECTIVE OF THE CAMP...!!!! there was too much theory but little practical.. so abit disappointed about that.. would love to see the year 1s shoot..

anyways.. on saturday.. jonathan took helm of the games as i needed to rest for the trial the following day.. yazid was present.. so.. yazid, anthony, cheong keat, james and I we were like playing campus climbing.. it's climbing without the aid of ur legs.. and we did it on the flight of stairs under salc.. we were to climb upwards backwards.. sounds weird.. but that's what we did.. we were climbing upwards.. but moving in a backwards manner.. as in our backs were facing the upwards motion.. it was cool.. and i was the only who managed to reach the top...!!! cool..!!

nightwalk.. don't wanna talk about.. 'something' happened.. but it ended so damn late ah.. it left me about 1 and half hours to rest for the trial..

so i woke up kinda late for the trial.. quickly washed up.. went to clubhouse to grab my bowset as well as leave my stuff.. the only ones awake were adelia, derong and albert.. okay.. half-awake.. but albert was doing SPTs with his bow outside the club by the stairs..

i was nodding my head in interupted sleep the whole journey to zhenghua.. the field is that goddamn big.. with so many boards.. many many boards.. set-up my bow.. registered myself.. went for team captain talk.. hah.. first experience being a stand-in team captain.. and second experience in a team captain meeting.. the previous one was during SP Open.. the DOS of the shoot.. a man by the name of richard is like damn dumb lah.. come up with stupid shit.. stubborn somemore.. until ali awang had to come and alter the decision.. i realised.. that HTNS team captains always have "something" to say..

well the shoot began with a whopping 5 ends of sighter.. see.. damn siao lah the DOS.. came up with this decision.. since no team captain objected so it was carried out.. i shot only for 3 rounds.. damn tired lah.. i cannot shoot that well.. and once the whole trial started.. it all turned out too true.. i couldn't shoot.. i was too damn tired.. the sun was blistering hot and the sunlight was so bright i had trouble aiming.. i was performing badly.. every shot i made took a lot of energy.. my bow felt like it weigh a tonne.. occasionally after i released i would be so tired that my bow arm collapses and that shot goes wayward.. some shots didn't even hit the board.. it was terrible.. but fortunately my mentality was solid and unwavering.. my mental clarity and strength was the only thing that drove me on in the trial.. my performance was superbly terrible..

i managed to qualify of coz.. so easy.. only 450pts.. passing score.. but after wat i've gone thru this day.. i have second thoughts about my participation in the actual event.. it was just terrible.. damn terrible.. my mum is like always asking me to take grab this opportunity.. but she doesn't know the complexity of the situation.. it is damn complicated.. i dunno whether i should participate or not.. wat do u readers think..?? should i participate..?? leave ur opinion on my tagboard..

after today and the things that i have experienced during the camp.. thoughts have begun to run in my head.. my ascension to a new person has just begun..