something rare here.

I've got some free time to write something.

well well well. i find myself in a rhetorical mood again.. maybe i'll manage to write something long. And since i'm a rhetorical mood, some of my words may mean different things. So don't just go jumping onto conclusions at first glance.

hmm.. i dunno where to start off from..
let's see.. okay. i'll start with what's happening in my life.

ITP. 2 more weeks. my supervisor told me that the shipment of components would be coming this coming week so my short stint with the logistics department is over i guess. There goes all the fun. And the hell starts. All in all, my torturous and testing ITP is coming to an end. I'm gonna miss my work colleagues. And i'm gonna kill someone. Yes truly kill someone. Not in a sudden death type of thing but more of a slow, painful death.

Archery - The club is gunning for a coach. Well not exactly the whole club. But me and Ryan are. So if both of us are agreeing to it then u can call it that way. hmm. wat else? Orh ya. My dream in archery, the dream that constantly keeps me in motivation, the dream that makes me strive ever onward, all i can say about it is that it's shattered. Shattered then the broken pieces are pulverized into smaller pieces then grinded into fine dust. That's how i feel about it. Now i find myself with no point of competing at a top level so i'll just shoot for the sake of shooting and the great feeling of every shot execution. Want to know why my dream is shattered? Ask me in person, i don't want to put it all here.

I've always enjoyed walking. Just wandering aimlessly around from one place to the next. If i know a route to my destination then i'll most definitely choose to walk. Walking is nice. While walking, thoughts of my life just randomly come up. And it makes me think and solve the problems that arise. It makes me think of better ways to do things. It makes me think of how i should run my life. It makes me think. I'm not thinking too much. I'm just putting things into perspective on how they are meant to be in that way, how they will be that way no matter how much it hurts and how it can never turn away from what it's supposed to be. I'm trying to persuade myself to face up to the harshness of reality and force myself to think of things that are probable and not dream of fantasies that can never be achieved. Even now i find myself no longer listening to songs with lyrics. Just music while i'm walking. Something to drive the mind into thinking. Beat music yeah, that's what i would to call it - Beat Music.

Okay enough with the melancholic rhetoric.

Well. while looking around at my everyday life there's one thing that somehow strikes my mind. It happens on the MRT platforms all the time. It is watching people chase after the closing doors of the train.

I just find it simply plain dumb and stupid and it doesn't relate with logical thinking. Let's look at it this way. The announcement goes "doors closing *teet* *teet* *teet* *teet*" then the doors close. Then people. hahaha. These people, they take some time to somehow digest this announcement in their minds and by the time they manage to understand the meaning they start making a run for it. By then the doors will already start moving to close up yet I still find it rather amusing to watch these people chase after the doors. What? They think they're some kind of superhero able to somersault or squeeze throught the doors? What? they think it's like a movie then go sideways and squeeze through like what u see in those slo-mo scenes in the moives. I still don't understand why. Why? Tell me why? The doors are already moving to close up then why? why is there a point in chasing? then they get all angry and frustrated when the doors close up in their face? What they think they're able to get in through that small gap? The doors take just a mere 2 seconds to close and why do people still make a run for the doors? The doors are already halfway closing and they still run for it.

When the doors close, just stop, there's nothing u can do about it. the doors will close up faster then u can even accelerate, just wait for the next train. ahahahah. I just find it really entertaining to watch these people chase after the doors. It's quite funny. It's something i've come to enjoy watching as i sit down waiting for the crowded escalator to clear.

The funny things that people do.

Anyways. I now seem to have developed some sort of a "actions speak louder then words" kind of attitude. I just don't feel like opening up my mouth anymore, not even to crack a joke. I just don't feel like saying anything. Even if i object to something and i know i can deal with it 'diplomatically' then i'll do it action-wise rather then opening up my mouth.



I feel a change in the wind says I.