Sometimes in a moment of your life.. You ask yourself why.. Why this..?? why that..?? I'm sure everyone has a moment whr they repent on their past mistakes or things that they should-have-done, should-not-have-done.. There's really one particular question that i always have to ponder over..

Why..?? Why..?? Why did i have to hurt my right knee/patella so much..?? Why..?? Oh why..?? Now i can't do many things without hurting my knee.. An accident just had to happen.. Was it the 23th of march 2002 or something like that..?? i just remember it's the early part of the year.. I nearly got run over by a pick-up truck.. Nearly run over does mean i got a hard knock.. the vehicle braked just in time but it also crashed into my right side.. damaging my knee in the process.. Bloody driver..!! Green man, i walk, you cannot wait, you just turn, you langgar me.. u idiot lehh... i dunno wat obscenity to use to describe ur stupidity..!! Then u say u cannot see me.. ( i was rather short back then).. or maybe it was you who was too short and can't even look over the dashboard.. Playing soccer was also painful.. I can no longer shoot the ball.. I can only give high balls..

In the same year, i hurt it again.. this time playing soccer at the school court on national day's eve... there was blood everywhere until kena my shorts and i look like i had mensus..

then i came to terms with the injury.. Hoping that it would no longer hinder me.. From sec 2 all the way to the end of sec 3 i was enjoying it.. the pain was gone.. And i tot it was over forever.. i still couldn't shoot a grounder ball.. But that was nothing.. I got other ways to hit the ball hard..

Then i hurt it again.. the early part of year 2005.. representing GESS in the annual soccer tournament.. Last match of GESS's season.. Against Fairfield.. We were leading 3-0.. i had made two assists.. one was a dummy for syaq's goal (very funny lehh, syaq called my name then i answer, then the stupid keeper went out the box to come towards me and syaq had an open goal for him to score).. the other was a shot that rebounded of the keeper into the path of aloysius.. Then one of our players kena red card then that stupid Ang ghim chee just had to make changes.. he put me behind with the defenders.. How am i suppose to play a defender when my body already tuned up for attacking when i had been playing the last 70mins as a striker..?? then the fairfield coach clever sia.. he put in one fucking fast striker.. Syed and i had trouble keeping him away from the box.. then at one moment i had to make a last ditched tackle to stop him.. Stopped him i did and i also hurt that same knee again..

Then got malay dance.. aggravated the injury again during one of the rehearsal for the 120th dinner where roslina elbowed me in the nose.. I fell backwards and my knee twisted under me.. That hurt a lot...

Then came the national day eve's match.. "b" division '05 versus "b"division '06.. u guessed it, again.. the worse injury to my knee.. Twisted my knee really bad.. could hardly run lest even walk.. the doctor said i had hurt my patella and the ligaments around it real bad.. Had to put on a knee supporter.. Cannot play soccer for 3 months..

Well.. that's a summary about my knee injury.. Really have me asking myself "why" i had to injure it so much.. Wish the pain would go away for good...