Fatigued..
Weak..
Slow..
Unmotivated..
Lifeless..

Yepp. This is how i feel. Fatigued. I don't really know why. Must be the hectic last week of ITP that drained me, plus straight into prep camp. I'm only human and my body does have a limit so right now, i'm damn tired. Weak. Makes logical sense, tiredness and fatigued makes me feel weak co there's no strength in my core. Slow. well. again i should say, affected by fatigue.

To be good, athletes train more. Good athletes train more AND rest more.

Unmotivated. Facing up to the reality of my shattered dream is really taking it's toll on me. Those who do know of my shattered dream can notice the decline in my performance. It's like i have really have no point in shooting at all. Yet there is still this small flame in the darkness of reality still alight in me telling me that i still can live the dream out, it's just that i have to somehow tweak the dream abit. This small flame flickers in size, either big or small. And the fact that i have to wait much more longer for her to come isn't making things any better. I need her to steady the wavering flame in me. I've planned everything out nicely for her and now i have to wait much longer for her and that isn't helping much.

There are alot of archers out there who have stopped shooting because of their low level in performance. I do not want to end up like them. The time and money that i have invested in this sport speaks for itself and by no means should i ever lose the will to shoot. It really makes no sense for me to lose all motivation for shooting. Looking back. Way back when i first started shooting. I never once ever thought about competing at a high level lest even know about high level competition. I shot because i enjoyed shooting. I loved every single moment of it. I must rekindle this love again. I will rekindle this love again. I must remember that i took up this sport coz i love the feeling of shooting and that competing at a high level really is just a bonus of my capability. If i can't compete at a high level, then i shall enjoy my shooting. The majority people say that what drives them in this sport is to win competitions. I am not these people. I have matured much in this sport and i have come to realise the true feeling of achievement in every shot that i make that feels perfect. It is this occasional feeling of high that i get when i execute a good shot that i drives me to shoot. I am in no hurry. I am in no rush. If i truly love this sport. Time doesn't matter at all.


The Love of Shooting.