today's a real interesting day..

started out with the new training system.. we were suppose to shoot a Fita 900 round.. 3 minutes for 60m.. 3 1/2 minutes for 50m.. and increased again (i think) by the time we reached 40m.. it's damn fast.. as well as tiring.. and fasting ain't helping that much..

well... i believe the theory behind the less time is a right thing indeed.. i thought i couldn't last through the whole Fita round.. it was pure torturous..but i made it thru..!! yesh..!! and a decent score to go with that.. lol.. now i know i can do even better when fasting is over.. whoo..!!

my time is now.. it's here.. it's just blossoming.. i know i can do it..

well.. i barely made it thru the fita round.. the 2nd end of the 50m round, i backe out.. but came in back again.. and it was a good decision.. aaahh.. i never felt so great just completing the whole fita round.. i have survived..

well. i was dead tired.. panting.. half dehydrated.. so i went up to club.. too bask in the rare weekend airconditioning and to wait for the team event to start..

and this is where the interesting part starts.. szeyuan was asking me several questions.. which i reluctantly answer.. and it dawned upon us that we both share the same experience.. she once went thru it.. and she knows how i feel.. it's good to know someone understands how i feel.. the feeling of hopelessness.. unwantedness.. dread.. the sucky feeling of being ignored.. it really is good to know that someone understands how i feel.. thx alot sze.. and i know u're reading this.. *winks*.. thx yah..

so.. team event was interesting.. was dread tired..

taught year 1s.. then call it a day..

so i'm sitting here.. typing all this down.. wonder how i'll be tmr.. and the following day..