Looking back at pictures..

I see her. All the times i spent with her. All the precious defining moments that i had with her. All the knowledge i gained with her. In the cold heavy rain, droplets trickling down my hair, she was with me. And in the blistering hot sun, with beads of perspiration dripping from my chin, she was there, with me. Through thick and thin, she was with me. She couldn't understand how I feel, but she was there with me. She couldn't hear me, couldn't talk to me, yet she was there with me. Her presence alone brought comfort and confidence in me. She was there with me whenever i don't feel like talking. She was always there - with me, for me.

But now, i'm no longer with her. I've given her up to scale much greater heights i know she can't provide me with. It's like moving on. To progress. I have to leave her for another to reach a greater height. But i still have her.

yeah yeah. it sounds like a person but it's not. She's my Eclipse. And this is how i feel. Parting with her, like any other loved one, pains me but i have to, to move on.

It's amazing how such an inanimate object can mean so much to someone. She's like my sword. In ancient times, mighty and majestic warriors and kings carried with them swords crafted with great skill which to a certain extent had the same characteristics as the warrior itself. And these warriors would give their swords names and treat their swords somewhat as a friend, talking to them, gaining strength and motivation from them as they glisten in the light and as the warriors lift them in the air in a majestic display before charging into battle. My Eclipse provided the same sword-warrior connection. But not anymore. I have a new bow now.

Somehow my new bow, established a new sword-warrior connection without much effort. It's like it was meant for me. Like it was drawn to me and once i was with it. It was like some sort of predestined thing for it to be with me. She established a connection with me almost instantaneously. And her colour of dark red with pink tribal patterns really suits the mood. The dark maroon colour representing the dominant melancholic ambiance and the pink patterns represent the occasional burst of excitement. She's exceptionally beautiful and suits me well. I believe we will do wonders in the future.

But i will never forget my Eclipse. It's really hard to part with her. I will only unveil her to the hands of those competent enough. I miss her actually. I miss Elena. That’s my Eclipse’s name – Elena.

I don’t know the name of my Inno yet.. not yet.. if I don’t know the name.. then cannot bankai.. XD. But I’ll know her name soon enough.. soon enough.. and together.. we will make wonders..

what is your name my dear inno...?