Hello hello 2011.

The year of my ORD. ehehehe.

okay. like every entry that i make at the start of the new year. It's time for me to reflect back on the events, happenings and emotions of the past year - 2010.

lemme see.

I started 2010 in NS, in SCS. Got to realise the emotion of hating the world. Where you've worked so hard and the results show but you don't get what you've worked so hard for. epic time.

2010 was a year which really tested out my mettle, my mental focus, my physical tolerance. I pushed myself to heights i never thought i could reach. All of these of course, through the army.

I went to Thailand for Exercise Crescendo. A real test. The hottest and driest condition i've ever been in. A place where I know who my real friends were. A place that weeded out the strong from the average. That size and physique don't matter, it's the mind within that counts.

A place where I found out from my friends how having someone was a real motivation to them. That they pushed themselves to the limit so that they can go home in good health to them. Then what motivated me to push along with them? I don't know. I still don't.

A place where friendships were cemented. A place where I saved some people's lives. I cringe at the thought of it. The feeling of helplessness as you look into their glassy thousand-yard-stare eyes. I don't like it at all.

Thailand did something to me. It changed me.

Now i'm posted back to where it all began -- Pulau Tekong. Home of Basic Military Training.

Of course, i gained new friends.

I learnt how to fish and became addicted to it and now it's become one of my hobbies. i got ryan addicted to it too.

Speaking of hobbies. I picked up paintball again. I'm in a team called Heartbreakers together with yazid. I like this team. I'll do my best to bring it up tops. I figured that paintball was the only avenue for me to let go of all the aggression in me. I can't let it just subside by doing fishing and archery. I need to let it loose.

as for archery. i've been coaching geraldine. she's been doing well. She won quite a number of medals after i taught her. But i'm trying to slowly not teach her, let terriss do the coaching. His coaching's conflicting with mine so i don't wanna ruin things for her. So i'm hoping this long absence i have from archery due to a real bad case of weekend training and duty, coupled with field maintenance, will slowly drift her away to terriss' teachings. I really have to do some supplementary archery training on my own to keep myself in shape. I kinda miss archery. This year. I'll go for archery more.

I've made a lot of great friends this year. and spent more time with friends that i already have. i've considerably spent alot of time with ryan the past year. spent doing lots of things. fishing especially. lol.

orh ya.. and about running. i've never participated in so much running events in a year before.

There's the 10km Army Half Marathon. Then there was Nike 10km run. Then there was the main highlight of my running calendar last year -- the Standard Chartered Marathon.

I've already signed up for 2 runs for this year. the 12km 2XU run and sundown marathon. I'll most definitely sign up for Standard Chartered this year once registration opens.

hmm.. lemme see what high-key events that i'll have this coming year?

12km 2XU run. sundown marathon. Standard chartered marathon. some more other runs maybe.

there's 2 legs of the Singapore Paintball Series. Maybe i'll be going for World Cup Asia this year with the Heartbreakers.

and of course. the MAIN highlight of this year. my ORD..!!!

i don't think i have a definite resolution for this year.

think i'll be much more high this year. think it's more me. i'll be more awesome this year.

yeah.

My resolution for this year would be to be more AWESOME.

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