Feeling damn melancholic now..
A gloomy state of mind..
The same feeling i got when i woke up from my bed on the last week of BSLC, on the 4th of February..

I feel quite empty inside. Like there's no sense of direction.. No light to guide my way.. It's like I've just stepped out of my path of life and now find myself wayward and lost..

It's such a real empty feeling.. a hollow feeling..

Had a real nice, long chat with chinyan yesterday after we collected our standard chartered marathon racepacks. But it made me feel much more dreadful to talk about it.. at how i've never done anything about it.. but that's over.. just some remnants still left behind.. And to even realise that i'm just nothing.. just a tool. someone to be used. makes the recovery even worse..

thought i could just sweat it out at archery today.. but it didn't happen. I didn't have the strength to shoot at all..

hope tmr's run would clear things up..