Been a really tough, mentally challenging and physically draining week..

I had SOC which i passed with a timing of 9.32.

I had my ippt where i finally obtained gold.. finally.. after all that hard work.. freaking standing broad jump.. lol.. after i completed all the static stations and knew i was on gold i ran the 2.4km like i never ran before.. ran till i could puke phlegm from my lungs..

basically this week was all about navigation..

damn tiring.. compass course was conducted at the 'backyar' of pasir laba camp.. some knolls and steep slopes just behind the camp.. day and night compass movement.. it was kinda fun doing the navigation.. but just a bitch to go up and down like a 60degree inclined slope all the time..

terrain reading march was also another physically draining event.. we had to navigate our way along the outside of PLC.. again.. i never thought that jurong would be so damn hilly.. went up and down and up and down and up again then down again.. really freaking tiring.. was a big surprise when my detail turned out to be the first to finish the entire thing.. the night march was kinda easy.. coz it was simply backtracking to a previous point then returning back to coy line..

then the main highlight of the entire navigation course was Exercise Gypsy which is basically a navigation exercise through the forested area of lower mandai.. the night before we were tasked to set the navigation data sheet and whatnot in preparation for the exercise.. my detail consisted of ppl from section 1 and my section.. my self-assigned detail IC was damn enthusiastic on planning out the route of navigation and all that stuff.. i questioned his ways but for whatever nonsense that he said to convince me the words that i hated the most that came out of his mouth was "trust me.."..

there's this saying that "before one leads, one should learn to follow".. so follow i did.. my section mates were damn uneasy about the planning done.. i told them not to worry for whatever happens.. should we get lost.. we know who to blame.. don't say that we didn't bring it up.. we did.. our detail IC is just too fucked up and stubborn to listen to us.. fuck him.. i fucked him up back in bmt.. i can do it again here..

and so we did get lost.. we got fucking lost.. really fucking lost.. fuck him fuck him.. we got lost coz of him.. "Trust me" my ass.. trust u to get us lost and walk around in circles in a place where we don't even know where the fuck we were..

so me and my section mates and a guy from his section set off to find where the fuck we were to at least get ourselves to at least another checkpoint and get our bearings from there.. so we got our coordinates thanks to the PIE then we made our way from there.. from there we finally manage to navigate thru to another checkpoint.. but the exercise was cut and we had to head back to command..

night navigation was fun but one hell of a hard time to navigate thru the thick undergrowth.. we didn't manage to find our night checkpoint again.. but at least this time that asshole didn't lead us.. exercise cut and we headed back to coy line.. reached back at around 1130pm.. so couldn't book out on friday.. booked out just now.. freaking tired but glad that it's all over..

before exercise gypsy however..
My OC did gave the coy a talk on how things are going.. the weeks are gonna get much tougher.. and the way he treated us for the whole of the past week was just a brief insight on how things are going to be.. damn.. if things are going to continue in that way.. it sure will be damn tough..
how come the other company's don't get it like mine does..? Ryan's coy is like so damn welfare.. jealous.. to a certain extent ya.. but in the end i know that it's through these tough times that i know it would make a better person out of me, a much tougher, more resilient, a much harder me.. desensitized and paralyzed to all things weak.. so that in future can lead my men much better.. to become a better commander.. a better leader..

i can already feel a change in me.. it's not something that i decided to change.. it's like the events around me changed me.. they say change is constant.. but this change is very significant.. i even talk differently now.. i see things differently now as well.. SISPEC really moulds leaders and commanders..

Speaking of leading men.. word around the block is that for my batch, most of us would end up in Guards unit.. Maybe that's why our OC (who is also a Guardsman) is training us hard.. maybe it's to get ourselves prepped up for it.. and our OC also did tell us that the Guards are one level higher than normal infantrymen and that the physical demands are also much higher.. In that level with them are the Commandos, Naval Diving Unit.. for example.. it's 30seconds lesser to attain an Ippt Gold for units in that level..

ahh.. that can come later.. now it's just to complete BSLC.. in 3 more weeks.. this will end and my professional term will start.. so before that comes.. i shall focus on what's left to come in the next few weeks..

it's gonna be physically draining and mentally challenging in the weeks ahead.. i don't even have enough time for myself.. if it goes on like this.. how to meet my wives..?!?!?! AARRGGGHHH..!!!

and a funny maths equation was brought up.. lol.. ask me if u want to know it..